~My Story~

I have to say sorry to my Chemistry lecturer, Miss Tan,
Today I am not paying attention when you are conducting the lesson,
because I "chik chak" with Chun Kit,
and i cant even catch up what you talking in the class,
I think today i will be revising back and,
will ask others when i am not understand...

We chat a lot of things today,
and i heard a bad news from him,
I am so sory to him,
I should not asking you that things,
luckly he dont mind anythings la....
His father has been died since he was primary six,
When the moment i heard the new,
I feel so sorry and
I was thinking how toughness he has been faced when his father was passed away,
He is the elder children in the family,
and is one of the 4 children in his family,
I also worrying about his mother,
who was take care four of them in the six years after her husband was passed away,
a kind, caring and firm mother...
Chun kit is a second friend i know who dont have father in his family,
the first friend is Ban Siong,
but the cases was different with chun kit,
his father was abandoned him and his mother since he was small,[I cant remember]....


Today Chun Kit also tell of his story to me,
he said is the time you must be let her over,
dont think too much on hers,
However I really cant do it,
She is the second person i met and i love so much after Yenn Rou,
I think i might have some tough day to forget her,
and a longest day than Yenn Rou,
When the chemistry class going end,
I just realise that Dillion was sitting beside her,
OMG!
Izit they are in the starting of love?
yesterday i went to see her's blog,
and i saw a long, long, long post is about him,
[Actually i checked for everyday when I got online]
I really dont want talk about her,
So....
change the topic, XD
Today our lecturer class from TD1 to TD4 were celebrating Miss Tee Birthday,
actually her birthday was at yesterday,
but she so "thick face" and informed us 1 week early,and said to us "
You guys should know what to do on the coming week"=.=
I even EMO-ing when today i heard she said
I regret that i didnt inform others lecturer class student,
then I wont be have so many birthday cake today" =.=!!!!
so thick face,
Leong, Anson, Tan Fei and me purposely dont want go out for taking the photo,
damn think face lo....
ZZZZ

今天我很早就起床了，
因为xxx昨天向我告知我明天不能再迟到了，
因为每次我跟xxx出去，
都是xxx在那里等了我一下子，
所以这次xxx醒悟，
先向我说声，
以便我不会再迟到，
为什么我们今天会出去的呢？
因为xxx妹妹今天生日，
她又要跟随朋友出去玩，
但是xxx的妈妈都很不放心，
所以叫了做xxx的xxx来做保镖，
当然的，
到了那里我们当然是分开走的，
我还以为xxx会随便穿呢！
所以我就随便穿了Pink colour的T-shirt和牛仔裤，
xxx就穿了skinny的牛仔裤和白色的上衣，[xxx很瘦的]
蛮搭配的，
xxx的妹妹也不错吗，
也穿了类似的服装，
两个都是黑白配，
哈哈。。。。


我们很早就到了那里，
因为为了方便买票，
今天我们选择了High School Musical 3[我想看的，而xxx不想看的，真的委屈xxx了] 和Tropic Thunder,
High School Musical 3 真的很好看，
而且都很感人，
害我都很想哭了，
连xxx第一和第二集都没看的人都说不错，
至于Tropic Thunder也是不错，
很搞笑，都快笑爆肚皮了，
在我们看戏之前，
我们到了Mc Donald，
和吃了我们常叫的Filet-O-Fish Set,
这次是我请xxx肋，
因为xxx说xxx快破产了，
可是我的生日快到了，
还要我请xxx，
真可恶！
不过我知道xxx那一天一定会请我吃东西的，
还有xxx在那里选择了我的生日礼物了，
就是Rexona，
因为我说我要实际的东西，
不过我很感动，
和这是我第一个收到的生日礼物，
我会好好的利用的。。。

不知为何，
每次跟xxx出去，
我都很开心的，
因为我会一直说些三八的话给xxx知道，
而且我也把我和她的故事跟xxx讲，
哈哈，
xxx当然的也还未找到马子，
可是xxx告诉我学校有很多LengLui,
LOLS...

Today I having my chemistry practical at pa156,
Haha, So nice,[Its a air con eqquiped practical room]
Shiok lo,
but when i stepped into the lab,
I can't feel the coldness of air-conditioner,
because it is just on no long time ago,
Hehe,
I was caring about who is my lecturer for practical,
I hope wont kena Ms Leong and MS Tan already,
Because Ms Leong is strict in practical and Ms Tan is my previous lecturer,
so now i wanna try new lecturer,
Haha,
Luckly, we kena Ms Audrey,
but today is Ms Tan replace her,
Hope Ms Audrey wont so strict as Ms Leong,
then I think I can enjoy when attending her class....

BUT today is a unluckly day for me,
don't why,
After i saw dillion was joinning her group to carry out the experiment,
then my mind keep think of some things,
I can't concentrate at all,
Although i was done searching some info for today practical,
and i was used around 2 hours to complete,
sommore i go through the steps already,
but after matter happened,
I can't remind all of this things,
For examples,
1. forgot pour distilled water at first then go put the P4O10 to the test tube,
[ Kena marah from OL. T.T]
2. the experiment result was failure
[Don't know why...]
3. I accidently touch the tips of dropper which contain universal indicator to one of my test tube, and the colour of black colour was changed to orange.
[LOL, WTF, such as serious problem happened and ofcourse kena marah from OL again... -.-]
4. I got 2 purple colour of the chemical...
[DUnno why]

I think all of these are cause from him and her...
ZZZZZZZZZ

Today we skipped 1 experiment,
because the experiment was dangerous and corrosive,
so we end the class 1 and half hour early than the time,
Then my gangs dunno where to go,
so just follow Dai Lou,
HAHA,
Finally, they decided to on pc at UTAR's CC,
ofcoz, i also follow my gangs,
Then gals gang said wanna go eat chicken rice,
then my 4 gangs also go la,
they all depend on me,
HAHA,
this time my gangs add 1 more people-Zhen Bao,
Actually I don't like him,
but he say wanna follow us,
actually he wanna follow Anson nia,
[shhh. act dunno anything]
such like gay soung,
LOL,
We spend RM71.50 for our 12 people lunch,
While we are enjoying our food,
Luckly the staff there told us tat some1 is samn-ing,
So, Dai Lou and Chin Wei faster go have a look lo,
Luckly didnt kena la,
hehe....
the others guys gangs why disspear liao,
because they all are addicted playing game at CC,
they can play games till full de,
Don't worry, won't die want.....

After that,
We going attend Problem Solving and Programming,
Luckly we didnt late for entering the class,
before that we was going NewJunction to print and photostat some things,
Due of the table are not enough,
so i moved 2 backwards,
in order we 4 ppl can sit in 1 rows,
then the SHIN TAT say wah,
you ar like that also can,
Sit with us la,
soung like bo song,
then shin tat wanna move inwards 1 ofcoz,
but Meigie dunwan,
She sound also like wanna kill me like that,
so Chuan ar....

After programming,
we go for Math replacement class,
Actually we can go back home early today,
but thank to mouse(Ms Lim),
So we have to attend her replacement class,
I dunno why she got so many free time,
No need teman her BF 1 meh?
Or dun hav BF yet??? XD

今天是Chun Shin的生日，
他算是我的知己之一，
有时候我遇到难题我都会找他的，
我当然一大早就祝贺他了，
我都不懂他还知道我的生日吗？
哈哈，
昨天我又流鼻血了，
不知道为什么会这样，
我一直对自己说是因为热气，
可是热气也不会那么的多次吧？
所以我从以前到现在都不是很敢吃巧克力和喝Milo，
现在我也不再理了，
我都照喝Milo，
哇，很久没喝Milo了，
很甜，和香，和好喝。。。。


今天上了Maths Class,
我觉得都很简单，
可能还没到很难的课吧, 很期待呢。
过后我们就上Maths Tutorial,
还好是Miss Pua教我们，
要不然我一定不明白的，
那时候的我，
就坐在她的后面，
我看到她跟Boh or Kuan说些话，
然后Boh or kuan转过头望了一下，
原来我才发现她是在问Boh or Kuan, Dillion去了哪里，
为什么还没进班，
那时我心里觉得很难受，
他没进班吧了，
都那么的紧张他，
然后Dillion就进班了。。。
原来是他向她借了tutorial，
所以才一直想问人他在哪里，
原来如此，
害人那时都没心情上课，
可是她的心里是想什么的，
我本人不敢闻过，想过。。。


接着就是Problem Solving & Programming的课了，
本人是完全不明白老师在讲什么的，
因为我本身就是个电脑白痴，
SEM 1的Computer科目，
我都是靠luckly的，
这次我真的得加倍努力了，
还有今天是我遇到Chemistry最难理解的一天,
可是还好我明白老师在讲什么，
但是你叫我去写出来，
我一定不行的。。。


过了三天也是Kia Siang的生日了，
哈哈，
这个时候是最多我认识的朋友的生日了,
我的期待是他跟她吧了，
希望他/她可以像我想象中的那样吧，
那一定很sweet...

Today is saturday, the day I can sleep late and wake up late,
Morning I received calls from someone,
but i dunno who is him,then went to eat my breakfast + lunch[lols, everytime i sure skip breakfast]
suddenly I received 1 msg from someone,
Ya... Is him [Yuen Wei]
I was curious why he will looking for me,
i thought he having exam next week,
but what is the point he looking for me,
after that, I call back him,
he wanna jio me go yamcha,
as i thought,
he is calling me go for yamcha and wanna kill the time,
lols,
then i quickly finished my breakfast,
and waiting him reach my house,
because before that he was attending his pengawas MP at school,
As usual, at first I didnt watch to him directly,
because I scare -.- [Dunno why, zzzz]
then he ask me why I so nervous,
I replied him i didnt....


We went to Steven Corner, [cheaper and nice yamcha place]
He also said its near to cyber cafe,
I already predicted that he want to go cc play dota with me,
Although I dont like the game,
but i have to see the situation,
this time is play with him,
so I always tolerate with him and play the game with him,
LOL....

In our conservation,
he said that his gang was Jun hao, Kok Wai and Chee Meng,
HAHA,
same as me 4 people gangs,
Jun Hao, my friend also,
he is a Pusat Sumber Pengawas just like me and Kok Wai,
three of us are the only 3 people in our form,
LOL [as you all know man are the extincted specieses in Pusat Sumber]
I know him since primary 1,
We are bext friend last time,
but due of something,
our relationship is worse,
until now, the relationship is not so bad la...
Kok Wai, another naib pengerusi in Pusat sumber, [can be considered as my enemy]
I hate him because he very jia infront of me,
He also got told him about he dont like me,
So wad ar... Geramjinya....
Chee Meng, a new student and currently is studying form 6 biology class with them,
I dunno much of him,
I only know he is a joker just like andrew in the class...
Well, I quite enjoy the game when I am playing with him....


Time passed very fast,
I getting the mode of laziness,
I feel some kinds of laziness to do my homework,
Aiks....
Tonight i going stay over one night at bear bear house,
the reason is wanna go his house online because of my house unable to access internet,
but the line there is not so good,
keep dc,
So this is what i angry for....
I ask bear bear some question about the public speaking,
He told me that he got full mark of his presentation,
SO lc...
But its a fact....
Luckly he got suggest some topic for me....

今天又是一个长久的课的一天，
我喜欢读书的感觉，
就是讨厌考试的感觉，
我也讨厌搭公共交通的感觉，
从我家到学校有整整一个半小时的时间，
[如果没有塞车， lolS]
再过不久我就得尝试那种的感觉了，
因为week 4开始就得自己搭公共交通回家了，
[Week 4, -.- My ....]
Pj的屋子快不要租了，
而且week6 可以搬到更好的屋子了，
hehe, shiok and excited...

当时就是考试和Asignment繁忙的时候，
希望我能应付，
这次我对我自己下了目标，
就是要保持或比之前更好，
希望我可以，
当然我也要你们的支持啊，爷爷~
HAHA...


我懂我这几天为什么我那么不高兴了，
我的旧病好像要复发了，
怎么办....
感觉上又回到了跟他在一起的时候的忧郁症和自痹症，
那时候我时常说他对我冷谈还是什么的，
所以我自己也就会忽思乱想的，
当我回到我自己的班时，
我都不告诉别人的，
而且我都很少跟人沟通，
这次我好像又回到了一前那样，
打从开学我就快点找定时的朋友来交往，
也就是我的那四个人的Gang,
但是我发觉我很难跟他们沟通，
Ah Fei都是很少跟我们的，
至于Anson和Leong都是一伙的，
他们都很喜欢去computer LAB开电脑的，
而我是最讨厌去学校开电脑的，
很慢，而且line也很差，
今天我们有两个小时多的时间breaks,
我用了一下子的时间来吃我的午餐，
然后还有两个小时的休息，
我不懂我要去哪里，
所以我就选择了跟大佬他们，
可是我终觉得我不是属于他们的一份子，
我都跟他们没有话题的，
所以在选位子的时候，
我也就帮了Anson和Leong霸个位子，
可是最后还是被那几个可恶的人霸了，
我尝试跟他们讲这两个位已经有人了，
为什么他们还是那么的不讲理的，
反而还叫我不要坐这边，
还叫我去跟她坐，
让这个位子给他，
吊啦，
我最讨厌这种不顾别人感觉的人，
我本身已经是个很有感触的人，
拜托你们顾一下我的感觉，
不要再把我和她来当笑柄了，
我自己都已经很痛苦了，
所以我就这样的跟他们做了，
而且我根本都没有出过什么声音，
当时我就感受到了我自己很自痹，
我喜欢我这次可以摆脱以前的感觉，
终觉得只有音乐是我的好朋友。。。


不止只有这些旧朋友回来吧了，
我好像又开始一直留鼻血了，
而且这次是在外面了，
感觉好像很严重，
我希望不要在像以前那样，
每一天都留超过两次的鼻血，
还好今天只有一次吧了，
希望不是什么癌症吧。。。
[太夸张了]
哈哈哈哈哈哈。。。。

Tuesday, a toughest day in a week in UTAR,
Today i having my class start from 9am until 5pm.
Such a busy day,
Morning, I will be going for Maths lecturer and tutorial class.
Our Maths tutor is Ms pua, [YEAH, happy XD]
but today she is not coming to our class,
so Mrs Chuah will be replacing her for 1 week,Mr Chuah,
a old guys who wearing a spectacle and a thin guys,
He teaching us a wrong solution for determining which function is One to one function....


After that I having lunch with my gangs (Leong, Anson, Fei and me) XD
As usual, we go Pc block for having our lunch there.
[Because Ah Fei dont like PA Block food, LOL]
After ate lunch,
we rush for our 3rd class today, [Problem Solving and Programming]
I was worrying about programming,
I heard from someone asid that programming is a hardest subject in the 2nd sem,
but i was trying to think that it is a easy subject,
I hope I wont so worry this subject like i facing English Language,
In sem 2, I will be facing 2 weak subject which is Public Speaking and Writing for science,
In order to maitain my cgpa well in sem 2,
I have to work hard for others subject,
so I hope that it is a easy subject,
At the moment my lecturer came in to the class,
WOAH! [is a Lenglui and young lady]
her speaking is quite ok,
At least she is quite kind and treat us like friend,
We end the class at 1 hour but we still having 1 more hour,
So we arguing with her to let us go early,
Finally,
she say we can leave the class after we done her work,
Hehe, So nice what....


Haiz,
Actually early end the class is a bad new for my class,
because we still have a last class today which is chemistry,
then now we having 1 and half hours break after programming class,
so, of course,
My gang will be going CC [Computer lab] as usual,
So sien la today,
After playing half hour at the lab,
then i decided to enter class early...
At class,
I feel so helpless and loneliness,
sawing ck group except Tracy and Chin Wei talking gossip and i cant jion them,
Tracy going out with TD4 and Chin Wei was reading novel at the class,
When i talk to Leong, Anson and Jia Cong,
I found that actually I dont have much topic with them,
Is it we are came from different background and different interests,
we talking not more than 20 sentence then no more topic can talk liao,
Then I go to Chin Wei there and accompany her,
Suddenly, Ck, Dai Lou and frog Zai were joining us,
Dai Lou wanna listen me and her story,
then I ma honestly told them lo,
What I hurt the most is about yesterday sensitive topic,
Its about the Effective Kissing topic,
Dai Lou told me that,when my group were doing outline,
He saw her keep watching Dillion,
We think she may be scared Dillion minds,
So she was keep watching him,
then I quickly run away from them to avoid listen what they saying,
I also feel that my relationship with her is getting worse...


After that my chemistry lecturer was came in which is Ms Tan teck Yee,
Hehe,
Actually she quite good de,
She giving us a lot of the informations but she is quite slow compare to others lecturer,
The first topic of the Chemistry is related Periodic Table as i have learned from Form 4,
but its quite detail and deep in the periodic table...
In the way I going back home,
I was worrying about this sem i cant score more than 3.8 cgpa in the final exam,
So,
Start from now i have to work more hard as sem 1,
and put more effort at those weak subject...


My UTAR life is getting hard and hard,
and I is getting lonely and lonely....


My Recovering Song,

Homeless from Leona Lewis,

Waiting here
For you to call me
For you to tell me
That everything's a big mistake

Waiting here
In this rainfall
Feeling so small
This dream was not suppose to break

I'm so sorry now
For the pain I caused you
Wont you please forgive
Please

But you don't love me anymore
You don't want me anymore
There's a sign on your door
No vacancy, just emptiness
Without your love
I'm homeless

In this cold
I'm walking aimless
Feeling helpless
Without a shelter from the storm

In my heart
I miss you so
your touch
And the bed that used to be so warm

I'm so sorry now
For the pain
I caused you
Wont you please forgive
Please

But you don't love me anymore
You don't want me anymore
There's a sign on your door
No vacancy, just emptiness
Without your love
I'm homeless

My, My baby
I'm sorry

But you don't love me anymore
You don't want me anymore
There's a sign on your door
No vacancy, just emptiness
Without your love
I'm homeless

缓慢 from 神木与瞳，

一双铁翅膀 送我到这地方
天快亮 舍不得这机场
缓慢的游荡 在拥挤的机场 风一样

多少荧光屏 总是闪烁不定
天与地 在中间他来临
缓慢的北京 有否我期待的 一个你

忘记你说你会继续 还是要结束
分开时只管哭 我是否太迷糊
你是否仍在乎

等的太久不想继续 也不愿结束
分开使我走出 最遥远的旅途
最缓慢的脚步

一杯热咖啡 滴不出我的泪
他是谁 在拥抱的是谁
缓慢的流泪 我没有太伤悲 我以为

忘记你说你会继续 还是要结束
分开时只管哭 我是否太迷糊
你是否仍在乎

等的太久不想继续 也不愿结束
开使我走出 最遥远的旅途
最缓慢的脚步

woo...wo...woo...

忘记你说你会继续 还是要结束
分开时只管哭 我是否太迷糊
你是否仍在乎

等的太久不想继续 也不愿结束
开使我走出 最遥远的旅途
最缓慢的脚步

woo...wo...woo...

Better man from Robbie Williams,

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain
Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time
As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man
Go easy on my conscience'
Cause it's not my fault
I know I've been taught
To take the blameRest assured my angels
Will catch my tears
Walk me out of here
I'm in pain
As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man
Once you've found that lover
You're homeward boundLove is all around
Love is all around
I know some have fallen on stony ground
But Love is all around
Send someone to love
need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain
Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time
As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doin' all I can
To be a better man


Better in time from Leona Lewis,

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow i can't forget you
After all that we've been through
Going , Coming
Thought i heard a knock
Thinking that (I deserve it)
Now i have realised
that i really didn't knooOooOw
If you didn't notice
You mean everything(quickly I'm learning)
To love again (all i know is)
I'm be oooOook
Thought i couldn't live without you
It's going to hurt when it heals too
Oh yeaah(It'll All get better in time)
Even though i really love you
I'm gonna smile because i deserve too
Oooh(It'll all get better in time)
I could of turned on the TV
Without something that would
remind meWas it all that easy?
To just put us out your feeling
If i'm dreamin
Don't want to let it(hurt my feelings)
But that's the past (i believe it)
And i know that, time will heal it
If you didn't notice
Well you mean everything(quickly i'm learning)
Oooh turn up again (All i know is)
I'm be ok
Thought i couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
Oooh yeah(It'll all get better in time)
Even though i really love you
I'm gonna smilebecause i deserve too
ooh(It'll all get better in time)
Since there's no more you and me
(No more you and me)
This time i let you go
so i can be free
And Live my life how it should be
(No No No No No No)
No matter how hard it is
I will be fine without you
Yes i Will
Thought i couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
Oooh(It'll all get better in time)
Even though i really loved you
I'm gonna smile
cos i deserve too yes i do
(It'll all get better in time)
Thought i couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
yeaaaah Ooooh oooooh
(It'll all get better in time)
Even though i really loved you
Going to smile
cos i deserve too
Ooooooh


也许有一天 from JS，

也许有一天　我会爱上你
也许有一天　我们在一起
也许有一天　等一个
也许也许有一天　我们都忘记
如果一切都会过去　不如留点回忆
当我看着你的眼睛　我等的是奇迹
也许有一天　你会想起我
也许有一天　我们都忘记
就算一切都会过去　还是应该伤心
当你睁开你的眼睛　看一看我的心
如果一切都会过去　不如留点回忆
当我看着你的眼睛　我等的是奇迹　（我等的是奇迹）
也许有一天　你会想起我
也许有一天　我们都忘记
也许有一天　我们都忘记

Such a bad mood today,
kissing really nice meh?
I know its fantasy and nice,
but i hope I wont do this on her,
What i decided last week?
So, JOE!!! Dont breaks the rules....

Today math lecturer is conducted by Miss Lim ( [TIKUS] is i heard from Wong)
I think she quite ok,
But not much good than Miss Pua,
I miss Miss Pua leh,
I hope Tutorial will be Miss Pua teaching us,
Anyway, today having class with her,
I feel that her class is quite boring,
I almost fall asleep at her class,
Dai lou, Loong and andrew also didnt bother what she say,
they keep play and play,
Sampai me nak join them, [HAHA]...

After having math class,
We have half an hours break,
so i decide not to eat so early,
then i enter class early...

OMG!!!!
My writing for science is Miss Kasthoori teachs leh,
what i heard from Bing, Wong and Yong,
She quite KONGBU!!!
Some more ask bing's class to debate, [ZZZZZ rite?]
I hope we wont debate,
Today she ask us to think some funny and interesting topic for us to write an essay,
then some one come out an idea,
the idea is quite good,
but i tink i this topic is quite hard for me ( NO MUCH IDEA ) to write.
then i pray i wont get that topic,
Unfortunately,
I got this topic and i was same group with her!!!!
so you yuan fen meh?!
then the class for us for come out a demo,
so they want both of us come out and do demo...
WAH!!!! so wad la....
I hope i can forget her,
but the feelings was coming back today.....