~My Story~

Amazing Painting!!!

2009-10-14T01:01:00.000+08:00

I love it man!

Unlucky >.<

2009-07-22T21:57:00.007+08:00

Well,
Today alot unlucky thing happened on me,
Firstly is regarding driving car 1,
As usual I passed by Pasar Pagi every morning,
and Today something very Geramji happened,
A car driving opposite me and scolding me,
The way are to sempit for my car to go through
But that fellow keep scold me and knock my car asking me faster go through -.-
Diu -.-
I wan reverse but he dun allow -.-
Then started to scold me,
When leaving also not forgotten to scold me and knock my car -.-
Hampic langgar dao others stall -.-
All blame to him,
Anyway, I not mind since he is elder than me and maybe he very old liao,
If tmr i saw him agn, i will SURELY defence him back -.-

Today is also a exam day,
so yesterday we all burning midnight oil and working hard on MATH!
I slept at 3.am and woke up at 5.30am @.@
So tiring and my eye very pain,
Even though everyone thought my math very good and no need to study,
But the true is terbalik 1,
Every time before math exam i surely slept lately and wake up earlier than usual -.-
Maybe I am too stresss?
But today's test i was not that good as I were in foundation,
Maybe degree got alot pro then i started to tension liao T.T

Yesterday night my guai zai was toooo "free",
and he draw something for me before he go sleep -.-
Sweat dao si

He is trying to burn his book? @.@

Hm!, waste my money to buy book for you !

Yes, Help me kill him pls -.-

I think i am not included?

Who's died? My son?

Panic???

2009-07-17T21:52:00.007+08:00

What a day i been through today?
It was really a bad day for me!
Today we having our first presentation for construction in degree,
Therefore, Yuan Chin, Rong Hwa and me are decided to present it while others just waiting for the Q & A section,
As most of the people from our group are mostly come from foundation and A level,
so, we are almost familiar with presentation,
Sometimes, it might be nervous but I treat it as a normal thing already,
We are human right? Nervous is normal for us.

Well, we three people have to come early today and practice for it,
So far we could manage to rehearse for 4 times until we could present for 8mins at maximum,
I canceled a lots of the part in my presentation due to lacking of the time,
This time I got improved since I only used 1 hour time yesterday midnight to practice and cut slide,
and in the end i could remember most of them!
Pro leh ~ ^^ Don't praise myself liao, later people say i perasan! F3
Anson was so unlucky have to come early too but he no need to present,
this is because of our assignment are still with him,
So we wanted him to come early and binds our assignment and tape it,
After he gave us the report then he started to sleep until the tutor came in,
Nowadays I realised that most of my gang easy to fall asleep in tutorial class and lecture class especially to AhMeng and Anson,
My son was scared to sleep in class when i around him,
Because I will take his sleeping face picture and let others to see it!
Hope he didn't read my blog, later he scold me again,
Where got son scold his father de?
Maybe he is the first 1? F3

Tick Tot, Tick Tot....
Time is runing and pass by us,
not even got 1 classmate go in class when the time was at 8.40am and we having tutorial at 9.00am which is the presentation time!
When it approaching to 8.45am,
I finally could see my classmate entered class and memorising the talk,
After our tutor came in,
He explained some rules for us and saying this presentation cannot exceed 8mins and we have 2 mins for the Q & A section,
Actually last last week he told us that we have 10mins for our presentation and i never thought there is a need for us to put a 2mins Q & A section there -.-
Lucky my son was went through their presentation last week and he told me too!
"SomeOne" so bad 1 lo,
I treat them so good but they never inform me 1,
I did every thing for them and ease their life,
and they ended up treat me like that,
"God No Eye arrrh"!!!
Well, when we senting out presentation soft copy to tutor,
I told him we want to be the first one to present,
and we did told him we are using our own laptop to present,
But can you guess what he replied me?
He said "Can you please wait for the last one to present? Since i don't want people waste their time when you are set up for the laptop -.- "
We forced to be the last one so i have nothing to say,
After that, the first group he called to present also using their own laptop,
Then can you guys guess again what he said?
He said "Okay, No problem -.-"
WAdda hell?
Can you all think what's the different between my group and their group?
Maybe my face very yong sui and he purposely don't want me to present,
and then finally he let us to be the second group to present,
The reason why I want the first group to present is I don't want to wait because it might create a nervous enviroment to me and sometimes i will forgot the points that I going to talk later.

After we set up the laptop,
Our presenter were did a very good job on it,
Our presentation was consider good enough,
But we cannot manage to answer the question from tutor,
We are soooo unlucky and kena this 2 question -.-
Actually the question are come from our report one,
But we all are done the report since 2-3 weeks ago and we just have our Fluid and Survey test last 2 day,
All of the information i were typed to the report are forgotten,
Our group question are :
1) Can you please tell me what is Certificate of Fitness?
2) What the name we called for the employor who are sent to the site?

Can you imagine how hard it is?
I know this two thing we have written in our report,
but it were Really a very very very VERY sub part for the entire assignment!
I only mention 2 sentence in the report so i never thought he will ask for that -.-
The 1st question is about consultants 1 which is done by me and the 2nd question is about employer which is done by chee how,
Both of us managed to get it half correct but he still say wrong -.-
The answer we said is :
1) Certificate of Fitness is the certificate that given by government to ensure the safety of the structure and needed to get dring the construction.
2) Clerk of .... (the last word we forgot edi T.T)

Then here is the answer he told us :
1) this certificate is to let the government to check the building after they completed the construction and whether it is safe to open to all of us.
2) Clerk of (World or Work) I forgot edi -.-

Can you guys compare this 2 ans? We almost got it correct rite?
But he still say its wrong and I estimate we lost 4 mark out of 40 marks!!!
He asked us to seek help from my classmate but noone is able to help us since they don't know the answer too -.-
So moody ar today!
Then others group kena those question is quite easy de except for the first question for Winston's group,
For me i also don't know how to ans lo!
Well, this presentation was passed and we are waiting for our second assignment which we hope we can really do it well!

My Group member!
(CheeHow, WeiChun, Myself, YuanJin and Anson)
Do you guys notice the backgroud light was look like the light from heaven? LOL

LOL? what the posing we both acting?

Picture with others group!
(Top) [CheeHow, YuanJin, WeiChun and Anson]
(Mid) [Winston, Apple, myself, I dunno this guys name] LOL
(Front) [JiaHao]

After taken the pictures then i changed my formal shirt,
Because later having my survey practical lab!
I don't want to wear a formal shirt and sweating there,
So far I also want to complain "SomeOne2"
He always make us wait ar,
and Today i waited for him for about 15mins or 20mins like tat,
and we wasted that time to left my setting there and waiting for him to check,
The wind was blowing strongly at that moment,
and our nails was not tighten up yet so it was senget abit,
then when he checking it and scold me lo,
Why the bottom never centered 1st,
Two times also kena leh,
Since i know how to do edi so we decided not letting him to check.
Next, we moving to a more steep slope hill beside library!
This time the setting really hard and I used about 30mins to set up the 1st part,
I also haven finish it u know?
Then I gave up first because I don't want my group member to wait for me,
Lucky i made an appointment next week to practice more for it,
Winston and apple were able to set it up, T.T
Only me cannot do yet!
Some of the others group gave up because it really very tough,
and Anson's group are the fastest group to finish it,
All of them set it up very fast,
Anson and me are forced to separate since others group are lacking 1 people in each group,
So i join winston's group and anson join Chua's group,
and they said we must able to o centering in 8mins time -.-
What the hell?
It's that possible for me?
Since we have our survey practical test,
So I would like to try more and more next week so that when test coming I wont so panic!!
Hope the coming Math test and report and assignment and tutorial and alllll the lab I could manage to do it!!!

Winston setting the Theodeolite!

Random~

2009-07-17T20:50:00.012+08:00

3/07/09 (Friday)
Last two week,
My class were went through survey practical task 2,
Well, it was really fun and most important we did enjoying for it,
My relationship with my classmate now is more closer and closer,
I think all of us would turns to good friend soon,

Yes it was me! I peeking girls~ shhsss...

7/7/09 (Tuesday)

Paiseh, the picture are not clear due to my "Lao Ya" handphone~

Lol, Cm's gf with wei chun~

Well, There were 16 of us that day,
and I went there with WeiHao,
I thought it was a BBQ,
But i don't know why they made a sudden changes due to lack of something,
Therefore, it ended up with a simple buffet -.-
The food consider okay and still acceptable,
The only thing i would like to complain is i eat little there @.@
Overall, it was really nice and thank you guys!

13/07/09 (Monday)

O.o, Breadboard

Voltage supply

Things to measure R, V and curent~

Well, That day we went through our first practical lab for circuit theory,
It was really rush for us since we having class from 9am to 12pm,
and straight go to lab at 12pm,
But of cause we could manage to eat our lunch by ponteng SunZi's lecture,
By looking at those tiny resistor and wire,
My eye is becoming more tired as I need to focus more,
Before that, I were really not feeling well due to lacking of sleeping time,
What I did yesterday?
I were studying Fluid Mechanics because having test on wednesday class,
Manatau, he come out with the question so easy 1,
Until almost all of us can do it and maybe scored full mark in the exam too!
Maybe he want us more people to pass Fluid so that, others will know how "well" he taught us.
Anyway, I think it was not really call a test,
We should call it as a tutorial paper as all of us can copy paste,
It's kinda not fair to me "hard working" guys who managed to finish the all the 5 chapters tested in the exam,
He also tell us more tips and the formula we need to used in the exam. -.-
The worst thing is the midterm' solution we can find it from the solution book for text book,
I never thought he would did that for us but i think it was not a midterm i want,
He can find us pass but can't he out those question which are come from text book?
I think he should edit the question first for us,
Cheating is still okay for me since i want my friends to pass their exam,
But at least he change abit for the question,
Anyway, it was a past tense and I don't want to remind it!
Chill!!!

Sem break's pictures taken~

2009-07-01T18:49:00.033+08:00

Okay,
I finally come back and touch my blog,
Sorry if i been away so long,
My blog almost dead edi ^^
I lazy to update since the first day of my sem 3 holiday and until now,
What i did in the sem break are,
i) everyday maple,
ii) midnight hang out with secondary friends,
iii) watch anime - Bleach and Naruto >.<

Well, My main in maple finally 4th and I have to thanks to Clydez, Lance and Fei,
They helped us alot in Maple while i training my character and now i m lv149, ^^
My status in maple is currently inactive due to my degree course started 4 weeks ago,
What i did everyday is just study, watch drama, anime, chatting with Sha Po, Sha Gong, suf net, Sometimes i will feel bored of it,
But i have no choice and get used to it,
I missed the lecturer and study style in PJ campus although the facilities there is poor compare to Setapak campus,
Now i m busy with my report, study, asignment and tutorials,
We have to study ourselves since the lecturer over setapak campus is not so good,
haiz, feel very stress because I have to maintain cgpa at 3.30 with all subjects credit,
I hope i can do it! ^^

Now i am lazy to type what i did in sem break,
Therefore i will show you all with pictures of what i did in sem break and after sem break^^

Sunway Piramid ( 14/5/09)

At Kopi Diam before depart to sunway ^^

At lift ^^

Top view~

Changing Shoe~

Out favaurite sushi king ^^

Pandang sini la!

Woah ^^

At lift again ^^

Magic mirror?

Buffet @ 有缘 near piramid~

Pity-nya, wwk's leg injuried F3

Ice Cream twin tower!!!

chatting ^^

Midnight movie - Angel and Demons ( 20/5/09)

Midnight movie - Coming Soon ( 7/5/09)

Chee Keong's 1st blood and same to me also

Road Block at 3am!!! So rajin ^^ My 1st time also

Happy Birthday!!! ( 13/6/09)

Happy birthday to PeiShan, YennRou and SiongKiat!

Blowing~

Smile ^^

Receiving present from us! SiongKiat got Bikini, YennRou got Bear bear and PeiShan got "Ma Ying Tong"

Funny!

Deal! exchanging!

Woah, What Eng Eng did to Shiang? Why she is crying?

>.< Sibeh Bo mood ZZZZ

2009-05-04T23:11:00.002+08:00

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

I really bo mood now,
11.13pm now,
and I was testing my security code for my maple,
I ACCIDENTALLY scratched over,
>.<
some codes are gone,
>.<
What shuld i do now?
I cant guess the 4 or 5 codes gone also,
My RM12 leh,
ZZZZZ
WHY everything i planed was not the same in my dream?
I thought everything would be smooth?
Why all of you want to play me like that?
Pet society also cant hack coin >.<
ask people, people also didnt reply,
What you all want me to do?
Rejected midnight movie from my frens,
Due to the 2x exp plan is going on tmr,
but now no one is willing to help me xfer,
>.<
Ask people help me also dunwan help,
Why WHyWHY!
Really so busy meh?
That time i helping you I still have exam going on tmr,
But now u juz replied me and say u are busy -.-
WTHHHHH,
Tonight I really bo mood,
I wish i could quit maple after i 4th job,
Why you always want to make me suffer like tat?
Now i am enough for the troublesome came to me,
I don't need any extra now >.<
What game problem, movie problem, family problem, my personal problems?
I cant withstand it alll at once >.<
Please stop coming please >.<
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

Well, Today should be a happy day,
Because I having a hangout with my TD1 gangs,
Can be said as Gathering or Farewell like that,
because some people are going to Kampar, ToC, Pj and so on,
Therefore, we all are called to have a last day meet. haha
Details and photos will be uploaded on Wednesday.....

Things that cannot be changed~

2009-05-04T00:07:00.005+08:00

>.< style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">SERIOUS lo!
Why YOU always give us alot troublesomes?
Don't you know all people were worring about YOU?
ZZZZ
I was regret that i didnt do my job when things happened,
Yes, Maybe i am selfish,
I was preparing my Final exam and staying at PJ,
And there is only a few hours or days staying at home,
Maybe We just have a few hours on the night can talk?
Because YOU always go out in the day >.<
A girl Should not go out frequently,
YOU should stay at home and BE a usual girl,
Please STOP thinking those things,
Everyone were MAD on YOU!
Can YOU please at least listen to OUR advise before YOU decided a thing?
Now they edi allow YOU to do WADEVER YOU like,
Can YOU please just give us A FEW MIN or SECONDS to let us talk to YOU?

Somethings happened in my life,
I thought it's just a simple thing,
and yet become a very serious case in the end,
I Wish I was there when the things happen,
We all can't forced you to do a thing,
but now we are spoiling your mind,
We should avoid this thing from the begining,
and now it became inflexible,
and We cant easily changed with ours hand,
Time past quickly,
and you were not here for 1 weeks @.@
Please just don't think of the past,
You still have a bright future,
All the people are worrying about you,
so, Hope you can understand us and come back soooon~

Tagged by Wei hao -.-

2009-05-03T23:43:00.002+08:00

Sorry for late reply~~~

幸运一族~
遊戲規則:被點到名字的人要在自已的blog裡寫下答案。傳給其它8個人。列出其它8個被點名的人，到他們的blog裡留言通知。被點名者不得拒絕。被點名的人將會得到大家的祝福(認真)，並且所有願望都會實現哦。

01.你認為分手後的男女朋友還能做普通朋友嗎?
答：hmmmm, Hard to say so, because sometimes i will very very hate her but sometimes dunno I cant control myself and go talk to her again >.<

02.你最希望從朋友(不包括愛人)那裡得到的是什麼？
答：Honesty 信任

03.最近最鬱悶的事？
答：Maple Spammer who can make me to 4th within few hours ZZZZZZZZZ

04.最受不了自已哪個缺點？
答：ugly and toooo sensitive

05.遇到喜歡的人，你是勇敢表白還是默默關注？
答：勇敢表白~

06.說出點你名的人的3個優點
答：speecless~

07.你現在最想擁有的是什麼？
答：4th job T.T

09.喜欢现在的生活吗？
答：So so...

10.如果要被關起來十五年，除了離開之外什麼都能做的話，要做什麼(複選，生涯規劃亦可)?
答：Myself happy can ler~

11.什么人是你最欣賞的？
答：lovely, kind, honesty, nice and ofcoz beautiful~

12.你身边有讨人厌的人吗？为什么？
答：Changable 1, sometimes hate him/her but sometimes like him/her.. LOL

13.十年之後，你想過什麼樣的生活？你打算如何實現呢？
答：Tak tau~ Lazy think future things

14.有想過放棄現有生活去流浪嗎？如果有，為的是什麼？
答：Tak ada, Because cant on9 i cant die T.T

15.如果中樂透三億會怎麼辦？
答：Buy Cash, Car, House, Reference book, Gift, Handphone, Laptop and lastly giv some of it to my family~ =P

16.喜欢听什么音乐？
答： ALOT

17.年終要領多少才算OK？
答：Tak tau

18.明天中午吃什麼
答：Tak tau

19.一個月多少錢才算OK?
答：Rm 3000 above!

20.最想到哪里举行婚礼？
答：>.< Tak tau, tak ada Gf yet....

21.雖然很八股題了，但還是想問一下，愛人好還是被愛好？
答：被愛好!

22.有什麼不可告人的怪癖？
答：ALOT and cant tell!

23.最希望自己具備哪一種超能力？
答：Can absorb people's POWER!!!! so i got alot alot power F3!!!

24.有没有暴力倾向？
答：sometimes

25.你认为谁最了解你?
答: No one!

Tagged name:
Tracy Neo
Wan Kah
Dai Lou
Chin Wei
Alexander
Soke Sien
Yenn Rou
Woan Shiang
Chun Shin

~~~

I am Back!!!!

2009-05-03T16:10:00.005+08:00

Sorry to keep you all waiting,
I was away from blog to prepare my FINAL exam,
Hehe,
Yesterday just finished the last subject - Management~
~Phew~ Quite easy, hehe...

27/04 - First day of Final,
Today was my first final and it was English for communication subject,
I quite dissapointed on myself,
Many question i cant do well as i expected,
The arrangement sentence was sooooo HARD T.T
I think i cant score well this time,
Not same as Writing for science which i did quite well in sem2,
haizzzzz,
Even the word form I also wrong many question,
How I score A this time leh?
Izzit my full scholarship dream gone???

30/04 - 2nd day of Final!
Wootssss,
Today time so fast,
and I came out early in exam,
hahaha,
First time came out early in foundation!
because today's paper was very easy @.@
Web page Design,
But some question like MIDI I cant do it,
Because it is not within our lecture slide,
How they want us to write o?
Therefore I just simply crap there and pass up the paper,
Lolsssss,
I came out with alex and we chit chat there~

[My Pj house~ Big leh hehe]

[Taken when came back from exam >.<]

[The mirror i everyday facing F3]

[My bedrooom i sleep at top >.<]

[and Finally my desk~]

Today is my last day staying in PJ!
Hmm, quite excited because I finally can escape from this place and back to my home!
Heheeeeee,
So after the exam i just pack my bag aand waiting my father to fetch me at night~
As usual, After i reached my house,
I heard alot unwanted news from my family tooooo,
TOLONG please, i want concentrate my exam but you all keeep telling those stuff,
What you all want me to do?
Me alone cant change anything also,
Advise also advise liao,
What you all expected?
Told you all dun kacau me when my exam is going on >.<
But I still can feel the warmth of my home.
HAHA

02/05 - LAST day of Final!!!
Hehe, Today I soooo excited for my final paper,
But so sui lo, Utar put it at 2pm, >.<
I woke up early in the morning, and as usual open my restaurant city,
Ofcoz the Restaurant City left it there and study for my Management Studies!
Yesterday I slept at 2.30am,
Although i have confident on this paper,
But my brain keep remind me to memorising once again before i went to sleep,
And today morning I also stilll memorising it,
But in the way of relaxing memorise the scope given by my BELOVED lecturer {Ms. Khor!} Heheeeee, Told you all i am Setapak currently,
So i asked Weihao come my house and fetch me F3 His driving skilll suck >.<
Fast like hellll,
haha, I wish i could drive the car but my mum is not allowing me to drive car yet >.<

Come back to the Management studies exam,
Hmm, can be considered as easy also,
I hope i can score in this subject toooo,
Although some of the question I not so sure,
But it still within the range i can score A,
hehehe,
Went back home after exam and keep playing maple !!!
hehe, planning to on 2x exp next week,
All please pray smoother line for me next week!!!
and also hope that lance can reply me as sooooon as possible >.<
Really hope that he allow clyde to spam me T.T
Today they spam for silv and she jump from lv109 to lv125 >.<
Gratz but i am jealous again >.<

S1 Reunion~

2009-04-19T00:41:00.033+08:00

Today I go yamcha with my S1 gang,
We went to 4 Happy Seasons,
The restaurant Total got 4 different season - Spring, Summer, Autumn and lastly Winter
Today we chose to go Winter with the rainy day,
Inside the room was very cold,
Lucky that restaurant have provided jackets for us to wear!
haha, The degree celsius is below 15C @.@
Very cold leh,
Then We eat eat eat and Drink Drink Drink,
I lazy write ler,
See the pictures below will tell you more!

PS : We very Zhi Lian -.-

[Spring Room]

[Summer Room]

[Winter Room]

[Shiok!]

[I busying Take photo! F3 and Shiang]

[Chun Shin, Eng] {Eng, wad u dunwan to hear? F3}

[Smile!]

[Me and Bear Bear]

[Dun see so nice, It's very exp and less food -.-]

[Sushi!]

[My Cappuccino!]

[Smile, Siong Kiat]

[Eng Dunno i taking photo! F3]

[Kia Siang Kesian nia!]

[Siong Kiat and I]

[Chun Shin and I!]

[Pei Shan and I]

[Eng Eng and I!]

[Kah Yee and I!]

[Kah Yee and Pei Shan]

[Sweat!]

[Guess Who is it?]

[My Friends!]

[Pity-nya Kia Siang]

[Smile Again]

[Woan Shiang and I!]

Last Day In PJ Campus~

2009-04-17T22:57:00.015+08:00

Yeah,
Today, The last day of staying UTAR, PJ campus,
also the last day of studying in foundation,
Throughout the 3 sem,
I am very happy because i knew alot of true friends as well as lecturers XD,
Although the subject is tough for us,
We will try to study hard for it in order to get FULL scholarship!!!
My Last War in foundation,
I MUST MUST MUST study hard to get 4.0 T.T,
I want full scholarship,
All bless me please!!!

[Alex and me !!!!]

[Arggg, What he touching? haha (Me and Chen Hoong)]

[Jia Cong and I!]

[Wei Hao and I!!]

[Me, My beloved Management lecture ( Ms. Khor ) and Tracy!!!]

Morning in the class,
All of us are busy taking photo with friends,
Of course me included!,
After the Management Lecture (last class in foundation),
We td1 are planned to go MV for bowling!
Before getting the way to MV,

[In the way to car park]

We went to Wendy to buy ice-cream, @.@
Honestly,
First taste are really nice,
but after few bited,
i feel bored for it -.-
I dunno why, just feel not nice taste after that,
We went to MV by 4 different cars - KW, CW, Dailou and Tracy,
lols so many cars but onli 13 of us going, @.@
After reached there,
Karwai's car are reached there 1st,
so Ck and Kw went to Da Kei!

[Fast and Furious? Kar wai~]

[Winning hehe, Chun Kit]

[Bowling!]

After that, We went to bowling for 3 games @.@
My hands still pain now >.<
Because I am not an expert at bowling,
Luckily my scores for 3 games were still nice, 65, 82 and 103!!!,
I am improved alot!!! hehe...

[My gang!! KarWai, Me and Anson!!]

[Haha, Shhhhh, They dunno I had been taken the picture!]

[Checking Mark @.@]

After the bowling,
We all are tired and decided to go back home,
I has been taken 2 hours @.@ again to go back,
Because i take public transport and the LRT keep stop moving in the middle of the way, Suck >.<
Night, I were playing Maple with my beloved friends!

Anyway,
I don't know what happen to my family now,
Everything seem seriously and I am gonna start interfere it when sem break,
It's very Annoying and everytime i studying my family for sure will tell me this things, >.<
I hate to know it but maybe I can change everythings!
So Please Please Please,
Dun tell me everything about it again now!
I wan to study -.-

@ I am exciting for the coming TD1 gathering, Why? Because AH FEI is GOING!!!!
@@ More Picture for today's event will be uploaded more next day !!!

静静的死....

2009-04-13T20:49:00.003+08:00

我又撤撤地地的陷入绝望，
曾从绝望中站起来，
可是我需要时间，
也许只有你可以默默地帮我，
请把我心中的愿望消除吧！
一旦愿望已死，
也再也不会有绝望，
所以我只能默默地杀死你，
或许我已走火如魔了，
这下子，就算天塌下来，
我也再也支撑不住，
伟豪，你说过可是帮我挡的，
可以现在把我也杀死吗？

静...

2009-04-13T19:22:00.003+08:00

渴望已侵蚀了愿望，
愿望没了光明也不再是愿望，
它将沦落为失望，没望。。。

我的生活充满了挑战，
挑战曾令我崩溃，
挑战激发了我心中的愿望，
也激发了压力，
崩溃一旦侵蚀了挑战，
我就会走火入魔,
我正在努力中，
重新寻找我心中的愿望，
可是机会是十分的渺小，
谁可以帮帮我这正迷失方向的人呢?
我已经撤撤地地的输了。。。

Mangement Presentation & PC fair day~

2009-04-12T17:54:00.007+08:00

10th April 2009 is my last last last presentation in UTAR pj campus,
also can be considered as my Last presentation in Foundation,
Hehe,
So happy,
My group's presentation was very successful,
I have to thank to my group members,
You all did a very well job,
After the presentation,
Sushi, Frog Zai and I went to Pc fair together,
Actually,
After reached KLCC,
We were walk separately,
Because My fren - bear bear was called me to accompany him to buy external hard disk,
In the PC fair,
I met Yenn Rou, Siong Kit, Wai Hung and so on,
What I can said is Yenn Rou fat edi, [Not my own opinion but also others, F3]
Hope she wont mind wad i said la,
haha,
I bought laptop skin, 2 Earphone and lastly my laptop cooler fan....

[Guess What is it?]

[DaDang, My laptop skin! Nice leh]

[My 2 earphone, I bought 2 because the another 1 is for backup usage! Hehe]

[Lousy Cooler Fan, It's very cheap F3]

Drama Video!!!

2009-04-09T15:31:00.004+08:00

All my friend are welcome to watch my group's Drama XD,
Here is the video F3

Title : Snow Black
Andrew acting as Witch
Chun Kit acting as Plasma and The Hug
Shen Joe (me) acting as Wong Fei Hong and Mulan
Anson acting as Prince Arthas
KarWai acting as Phua Chu Kang

PS :
@ Andrew was in a gal dress...
@@ My laptop was hang, therefore I came out from back screen to take my backup phone >.<
@@@ Our torch light was lost therefore......

Drama day ~ >.<

2009-04-08T19:47:00.004+08:00

Today is Td1 and Td2 drama day,
We all are excited and nervous for it,
As you all can see that,
before the drama getting started,
We all are dress up and are ready for the drama,
In the beginning of the drama,
Guess what I saw? =P
I saw Shin Ji was acting L!!!!
So nice and handsome hahahaha!
Anyway i hate Shit Tat in the girl look,
Dun say edi, Going to vomit... F3
Andrew finally found someone to lend him skirt ( Chin Wei's one )and shirt ( Tracy's one )
lol,
His look still ok lar.
Honestly, I am really feel ABIT disappointed on our drama,
Everything was fine,
but I was forgetting script for my "Mulan" part,
And my "bra" was not ready and tight yet when the time I have to go out,
zzzz, Told them don't so early come out,
Wait me done dress up 1st,
but....
Suak ler...
You know i hate borrowing tools to others,
Why?
Because i know we sure missed this thing when our drama show time,
We lost our torch light and that why I hate borrowing others!!!! [GeRamJi-nya]
It's past, and I not going to say again after this,
its reminding me alot!
Anyway, My team did very well job!!!
I am really appreciate you all for it,
And please forgive me if you feel I am giving you stress, HEHE
Sorry for CK... F3

Since from 3 week ago,
I found that I have an "interesting" power happened on me,
This power is just same as Tracy,
Our sight on the alarm,
These few days,
I keep seeing 0808, 2323, 1111, 1010, 0606, 000, and so on,
I don't know it's interesting or not,
But someone told me that it shows you are lucky,
I not dare to know lar,
Besides from this,
I also found out that,
Everything I scare or worry,
And it will for sure happen in the coming day,
For example,
Yesterday i was worrying about torch light,
and I keep reminding Chun Kit to take the torch light from them,
But we still lost it. Sweat!!!
Another case,
For the web page design presentation,
I always scare Dillion and KarWai will miss some point,
so before the presentation,
I also keep reminding them but still....
For now I am worry for the coming Management Presentation,
I scare everything I worry for will come true again,
So, I not dare to think about it again,
Hehe...

Anyway our drama video will be uploaded tomorrow,
Please patiently wait for it!!!!

Web Page Presentation

2009-04-07T17:42:00.016+08:00

[Myself after i change my hair style =P, notice my back side hair is in terbalik U-shape]

[TD1 gang!]

[The Guys gang!]

[My _ _ _ _ _] Guess XP

[Lunch at PC after the presentation!]

[Jian Bao and me XD]

[Td1 gangs! Taken when Shin tat group were presenting. XD]

[My Web page design Team!]

[Dai lou Team!]

[Tracy team!]

[I am presenting!]

[I am presenting _ _ _'s favourite cars]

[Ah ma was presenting!]

Excellent guys~
Today is the day of our class presentation,
My group was kena the 2nd 1 to present,
Tracy group was kena the 1st 1,
I think my group member were did very well,
Thank U all!!!
but We have and unfair lecturer, >.<
Why I say so?
Because honestly la,
I am not Emo or what,
Those last minute people's web site,
presentation and report all higher than my group and tracy group,
I don't know maybe we have face problem or lecturer's problem?
Besides this,
she told us that no wear tie = not formal! lols
This is the lesson i learn today >.<
Swt sia,
where got people say no tie mean not formal, -.-!!!
Its just unfair for us,
Anyway we can't blame others,
Maybe they did better than us and we also don't know leh,
Between I still can accept it lar,
haha We don't think about the past,
and just think of future and current situation!

Tomorrow is the day of drama,
Today our TD1 group all stay back until around 5pm,
while Tracy group and Shao Tat group were sharing room with us,
Lols,
Tracy group's voice were so loud until sometimes we can't hear the speak,
bo bian,
Today is the last day we can practice,
I hope that my "bra" wont drop down before the climax part, >.<
I hope that everything will be fine tomorrow...
God please bless my group >.<

How, How, How?
I am now lazy to touch my mangement book and web page book,
Feel like relaxing ~
Not getting ready to fight my last war!
How i get 4.0 this time?

Random~

2009-04-06T18:19:00.002+08:00

Time passes fast,
and Final is approaching!!!
It's has been long time I didn't update my blog,
Why?
Because busy of those assignment and drama,
Now i am free to blog because all the assignment we submitted already,
Now only left my 2 presentation for web page and Management and 1 drama,
My Web page presentation is on tomorrow,
where as my Management presentation is on Friday,
I still can handle web page presentation because all the web site is created by me, XD
So i no need to worry about that,
Our drama is consider as so so,
I hope we can really score high mark for it,
but not getting advance to the competition, lol
Management presentation is still far for me,
So I have more time to prepare,
Please bless me everything will be fine tmr or even my next drama and presentation...

Sien~
I died again in Maple,
lols,
People should thinking,
How a warrior die eventhough their Hp is dam long,
because i am now training at RW which is a dangerous place and will do 1.8k damage to you,
That why i keep dieing there,
In coming sem break,
i will be choinging for my knight,
until i get on 4th!!!

I found that I don't have much time to study for Final,
I hope that the question paper is EASY for me,
and hope I can do well too. =P

Happy Day~

2009-04-02T21:04:00.006+08:00

[Me and Fei !!!] {not tan fei, its tan theen fei} F3

[Status of the helm!]

Hehe,
Last week sunday I finally Helmed for my knight !!! ^^
So happy,
and I have to thank to my mei (hihipuppy01) and her friend to help me,
Actually at 1st there are 10 of us want to helm 1,
But in the end there is only 3 of us left,
We used 3 hour++ to kill it as there is only 2 atcker here,
Where is the others?
Many of our team Died and accidentally go back town, and some of them are Dc,
Hehe,
its a good news for me? or bad news?
I dun care liao ,
as long as i m helmed!!!
Waiting for my sem break then i will choing to 4th le,
Hope everything fine and bless for my Final!!!!
Gambateh...

Random~

2009-03-25T18:18:00.004+08:00

Ermm,
Actually I have nothing to write,
but since Wei Hao asked me to update,
so I finally decided to write something about him,
Actually these few days I am emo-ing,
Why?
Because of maple stuff,
As I told u all that saturday is my bro Birthday,
on the moment i yamcha with them,
Someone sms-ed me and asked me to help him the next day he going to on x2 exp,
At that time I wanted to refuse him one,
but since he is my best friend too,
so i decided to help him lo,
Actually this is one of the reason i want to help him,
there is an another reason why I want to help him too,
But I unwilling to tell u all, [PaiSeh]
At first, he asked me to help on his id from 8am to 1pm @.@,
and Rser will be helping him to spam at Ulu and I suppose to afk there,
but he kena hacked on saturday and unable to help him to spam on sunday morning,
Therefore, he quite headache of it and keep thinking solution,
and Finally he decided to ask me on Munchyxx to guard map at Ulu,
Wth, if afk is still okay for me,
but he asked to me guard map means my eye should be 100% on computer every 5 seconds,
At the time I want to reject him 1,
but Dunno why i decided to help him,
Why I dunwan to help him?
Because I having Practical accessment for Web Page Design on Tuesday,
A Mid-term test for Web Page Design on Wednesday,
and finally A mid-term test for Management studies on Friday,
I haven finished study for this 2 subject,
and i edi plan to finish management by sunday,
but because of him, I delayed the time for me to finish...
I think this is still okay for me,
Because I still can manage it well and I got full mark for my Practical accessment, [Actually very easy -.-]
summore today's test for Web page design is quite easy and we are allowed to discuss -.-

This is not the point for me to emo,
The things made me emo is him,
As the plan i stated on Sunday to help him guard map,
I come out with an idea of on 2 computer to help him guard -.-
Why i want to on 2 computer?
This is because of I will dc when i using laptop,
lucky i didnt dc on the day la,
Around 1.30pm+ he finally free and the time for train himself,
he just on maple and asked me to off,
WITHOUT saying thank you to me,
but he keep say Thank you to Rser who is the spammer at Ulu -.-
WTF, At the time i very emo edi and made me cant concentrate on study,
Another point that made me emo too is he Level up TOO FAST!!!
He jumped from lv103 to lv120 just within a day on maple -.-
WTH so fast because he got bs id (lv200) to help him spam at Skele after lv108,
Walao,
Then monday i asked him whether can help me to spam at skele on May?
but he said cant because of the owner feel like not happy on it,
So he just reject to help me and said can accompany with me when i on x2,
I think he quite self fish also,
Always think of himself, and never think of my condition?
Last time he always think of me one,
but this time i really dissapointed on him,
but its true la because that id is not his id also and he cant help me too much de...

Monday i was emo-ing too,
but until yesterday (Tuesday),
I willing to manage my emotion,
So i feel like its not fair for him to ended up our relationship just like this,
actually its my own personality problems,
its only depend on his heart lo,
So, yesterday I decided to say sorry to him and without letting him know the reason,
Why i decided to post at my blog?
Because I know that he will never visit my blog if i ask him to do so -.-
If you are accidentally saw it, I hope you can understand my condition too,
Anyway, Gratz you lv120 and on 4th!!!
Lastly, God please bless me on friday!!!
Gambateh~~~

Happy Birthday!!!

2009-03-21T20:33:00.005+08:00

Yuen Wei!!!

Erm,

What Should I say leh?

Today and yesterday are my friend Birthday!

They are Chin Wei (20/03) and Yuen Wei (21/03),

Sorry for Chin Wei because i late to post,

These few days i lazy to on blogspot and write my things,

I wanted to on 1,

But i scare of something else,

In Sem 1, i also got write blog and my result was not that good,

but Sem 2, I never update my blog and only start to blog after Final,

And my result was good,

I wondering is this real or just lucky like that?

So in these few days I wont update my blog unless you guys saw it la,

Den i have nothing to say, HAHA,

But since today is My bro Birthday,

So BO bian! Have to write something de ma, hehe...

Yesterday, I receive message from a girl,
She asking me whether want to hang out and yam cha tommorow,

I think I should be no problem,

But next week is my mid term test arr,

Actually i dunwan to go 1,

but its purpose is to celebrate my bro birthday,

So i ended up tommorow's plan and go with them,

But She told me to cheat him,

Because she wanted us to give him a surprise,

But this plan was failed,

Why? Because of me!!!

He said he already know because he know I never reject him 1,

Swt, This is not the reason OK!

Actually yesterday i got sms-ed him i can go 1,

But suddenly Pei Yi called me and inform me her plan,

So maybe this is the hints, so that he know we cheating them,

HAHA...

Us!!! [Me, Yuen Wei, Sze Ying, Pei Yi]

Around 12pm+, Pei Yi called me go buy cake with her,

But I never thought he gonna ask me go out on that time,

He so crazy ar,

Called me and say i am infront of your door,

Come out now and go cut hair with him,

SWT!!!

Therefore i cant go with Pei Yi, Haiz,

After that we go Station 1 to celebrate his Birthday,

I yesterday only go station with Ck, Sam and Meng Wei ar,

Actually going Pokai, but Nevermind la,

One year One time, HEHE

So we talk craps there and play some games,
The games quite interesting and I like it,

I wish i could teach u all next time,

Maybe in the trip in sem break?

Who knows? We also haven plan yet,

We end up this celebration on 4pm+ and he fetch me back,

After that, Clydez called me to help him play,

Actually i dunwan but no choice,

Because next week got exam so i dunwan to help 1,

Aiya, but since we are Friend so i help lo, Haiz....

Wish I could finished study tmr!
God bless me!!!

Hehe! Forced by us!

2009-03-18T19:57:00.001+08:00

好讨厌你哦。。。

You are not going to finish strong just like this!!!

2009-03-04T17:50:00.004+08:00

Err,
I would like to share a video with you guys,
this video is introduced by Chun Kit,
After I watched it, I feel very touching and realise that we should not give up when you face any difficulites,
No matter how toughness the difficulties are,
Try to understand the problems and solve with the best way,
It's hard to withstand with difficulties,
but once you gone through,
you will feel happy and satisfied~
Here the video is ~

Tan Fei words~

2009-03-03T23:55:00.005+08:00

For TD1 gentleman and ladies,
Tan Fei have something to say to you all,
I scare the words written by Tan Fei in chat box will be flushed up,
So here the words he posted~

CBM : thx 4 everythg u had helped me in dis pass 2 semester..
maybe i shud be more hardworking=)..
anyways,take care n good luck to u and to all TD1 classmates..
i had a wonderful utar life with u al
3 Mar 09, 22:34

CBM : i wil nvr 4get u al bcoz u al had been a part of my life..
lastly wish u al pass ur foundation with high cgpa n have fun =D
ALL DA BEST
3 Mar 09, 22:36

and here the replys to your message~

CBM @ MojoJojo : LOL, thx for the wished and take care of urself hehe,
yea once we noe each others u edi interfere my life and its become a part of my life also,
I believe that u can success in future

CBM @ MojoJojo : If you found any problems u can share with me 1,
I will be available at all the time,
dun forget that u r my music updater,
continue be my updater if can,
hehe,
wish u can pass all at mmu also la hehe
3 Mar 09, 23:21

CBM @ MojoJojo: and lastly try to visit my blog more hehe~
3 Mar 09, 23:32

Err, it's hard for me to express my feeling at here,
I hope that someone is willing to listen~
ALL THE BEST~
KEEP IN TOUCH~

Good Luck Tan Fei~

2009-03-03T16:22:00.006+08:00

Me and cute Fei =P

Me, cute Fei and Andrew ^.^

Okay,

Today Tanfei got the answer of withdrawal stuff,

He said that today will be the last day staying at UTAR,

huh?!

It's really a shock news to us,
Because before he told us that last week only don't come,

He is the 3rd person who withdrawed in my class,

The 1st 2 person is Boh and Kuan,

We all also get shocked when we heard they withdrawed,

After Management Class,

Me, Tanfei and Andrew went to the Wendy's to eat,

it can be considered as a farewell for him,

but due to pasar malam,

Dailou they all have to go back early before Pasar Malam starts,

Anyway,

It's still fun although i not understanding about Dota they talking about,

I was tried to understand it,

Maybe 10 years later i can understand better?

I regreted that i didnt took photo while we are eating,

but I have took some photo with him during Management class and its have been shown at top,

Actually Tanfei is quite smart,

but the only things weekness is lazy,

Lazy to study,

Maybe you didn't play much dota recently even some others games,

but you still have to work hard for pursuit your goals,

Maybe it is just a simple goal,

want to pass in your exam,

but my advises to you is try not to be lazy,

and starting to read and try to understand it,

If you don't understand any part in the subject,

you can find someone else to teach you,

maybe I can help too if i am free, XD

You can be a pro too if u work hard for your study,

Okay, I have to stop now,

because some people will say me very ah po later,

but this time is the same feeling as last time when we gonna back home in NS,

the kind of feeling like splitting friends,

Today I got the feeling too,

For those who are missed the farewell,

Don't be too upset,

He is still available in subang until this week friday,

Maybe you can find him out and yamcha,

and Lastly wish you pass your car test in this coming monday.

I really appreciate to Clydez helps in my drama,

it can be said that is a asignment for English for Communication,

He tried to give me a lot of the ideas,

and some laughing points,

Although some people said that his ideas is a bit normal and nothing speacial,

but i wont get influenced,

our group have decided to used it, XD

Thank you once again~

A Bad Day~

2009-03-02T17:38:00.003+08:00

Today,
The first day and the starting of the Sem 3 in the UTAR,
It's a Final Sem of staying UTAR in PJ campus,
Well, Today's lecture and tutorial is quite okay,
but the bad news is about my friend, Tan Fei,
He maybe will be leaving UTAR by next week,
His mum called him go to MMU for something like IT degree course,
At first, I don't like people to withdraw in the half way of studies,
But, after few hours,
I realise that if you really don't have any interest on that course,
You should stop it now,
By the way you are wasting money also,
but it is the best way to solve the problem,
I tried to persuade him to stay at UTAR,
but he said that about 80% will be going MMU as what was planed by his mum,
What I can do for him now is Hope he will be fine at there,
My friend told me that maybe me could help him pass throughout whole foundation,
but you could not help him to pass in degree,
Now is depends on what his interest and follow that ways,
God please lead the way to my friend~

Another bad things also,
I don't know why you treat me differently as the time in sem 2,
We just talk about few sentences then no more edi,
what is happening to us?

死亡~

2009-03-01T02:19:00.017+08:00

今天半夜我不知为何心血来潮，
看了一部日本电影，
这部戏是伟豪在他的blog慎重介绍的，
我还记得这部戏韵柔很久以前曾经介绍过，
当时我以为这种类型的戏，
我都不会很喜欢看，
可是今天它却打破了我的思想，
真的很不错。。。
这部戏名叫做（死神的精度）

千叶，你的发型很帅

一惠，你一点也不丑，只是没有很特别

千叶在剧中多种的发型

@简介　

千叶，总是带着白手套，闲暇时候喜欢在CD店里面的试听角落里沉迷在音乐中的死神。他总是在下着暴雨的天气中和他的黑色爱犬一起出现，与即将死去的人共渡七天后，再夺取他/她的性命。

黑衣服、黑领带、白手套，跟着一只会说话的黑狗，这是%26quot;死神%26quot;千叶的标准装束。和人们想像的不同，这个死神并非面目狰狞、也不带镰刀，而是一个丝毫不吓人的大帅哥。千叶的工作是审判，对于即将意外死亡的对象，他会在其死前进行为期七天的观察，最终决定是实行死亡还是放生延命。千叶对人类没什么好感，在他手下从来没有获得放生的幸运者。不过，千叶非常喜欢音乐，认为这是人类最伟大的发明。对他来说，在干净利落地处理完工作之后走进CD商店戴上耳机倾听音乐乃是至高无上的享受。

千叶这次的对象是27岁的公司职员藤木一惠。藤木一惠个性阴沉，并不招人喜爱，不少人因她而死，她却无动于衷。千叶和往常一样变装来到人间，和往常一样又碰到下雨。看到一惠带着疲惫的神情下班走出公司大楼，千叶跟了上去。此时的他还不知道，有着某项特殊才能的一惠将会改变他对人类的看法。当死神作出不同于以往的判断时，超脱时空的命运之轮开始了转动。

@幕后/花絮

英俊温柔的金城武版死神裁断生死的死神因一念之差放了一名女子一条生路，没想到就此引起连锁反应，带来了意想不到的后遗症，不老不死的他依然冷漠地旁观着人世的流变，内心却泛起了涟漪，他开始理解人类的感情，尝试去体会人生的滋味。《死神的精度》是一场跨越1985、2007、2028三个年代的旅行，它有一点灵异，却并不故弄玄虚，在跟随死神游历过去、现在和未来的途中，你或许会站在别样的角度审视生活，获得一些前所未有的感动。

@@感想

你们有想过死亡吗？

我本人曾经想过很多次，

你相信自己吗？

我，当然啦，

我一向来都对自己充满期待，

我曾经想过就这样离开，

可是自问自己是否已没有遗憾了，

但我可以说的是，

还有的，

我还没成功，

还没真正的享受成功，

还没去过，

还没看过你，

还没问过你，

还没玩过，

还没真正的开心过，

还没找到知心人，

还没赢过，

还没拥有过，

我还有很多的还没，

我现在真的还有很多的遗憾，

我只知道我还不能就这样的离去。。。

If I were The BOSS~

2009-02-28T23:56:00.002+08:00

New version of (If I were a boy) by Hitz FM,
Quite funny and it's intro by Ah Fei,
Click and watch XD

~New Header~

2009-02-26T23:54:00.001+08:00

Ladies and Gentlemen,
Have a look on my new header,
It's new and made by me, XD
I really like it,
I am first time to edit photo,
Remember to leave your comment~

What a day?

2009-02-25T22:14:00.009+08:00

Just want to tell u all,

I am emo-ing right now,
I don't know what caused it,

Maybe because of today result is released?

Yea, I agree with that,

because i not so sastified with my result,

I thought i can got 4.0,

but now i only got 3.95,

The only 1 subject got A- is Writing For Science,

this is what I expected,

Anyway its still in my range of expectation [ 3.95-4.00 ],

I am so thankful to God for praying me, XD

I shall happy with my result now,

I need to work harder and harder in order to get Full scholarship in degree,

Many people think that I crazy with my result,

Said that I am greedy with my result,

I not greedy okay,

I just want to confirm I can get Full Scholarship before my father is retire,

I don't want to lose the only one money source in my family,

I don't want to be a burden just because of my studies,

so I have to score it,

nono, its a MUST,

So all now is depend on my 3rd sem result~

Although i know its really hard for me,

because i have counted that I have to score all A in sem 3 in order to push up my cgpa to 3.9 and above,

huh? its really hard rite?
Its a Dream for me?

I wish i could do it~

Back to the topic of emo-ing,

Maybe because of game stuff?

Today I have a discussion with friends,

Anyway its really brings me down because of the 8.8m VIP slot for zkm helm is off, -.-

I thought I can go by this week,

But i was wrong,

They off the offer a long time ago,

So i got to find a new zakum organiser,

Now I got a zkm org from Siong, [ fei and clyde's friend ]

I have enough fund,

But what I scare now is DC,

They didnt refund if you were DC,

Its hard to find a zkm org who fulfill my requirement,

because most of them are not refunding if you were DC,

Haiz,

I not dare to take the risk,

Its cost 20m or abv for me,

Its just a short term dream for me~

Nightmare,

I having above 2 nightmare for everyday,

I don't know why I will become like this,

But i am just dreamed of some weird dreams,

Its really scary and everytime i will awake when THE THING is approach me,

I not dare to think of it,

I also can't straight fall at sleep at night although I go to bed very early,

Maybe i not tire? not sleepy?

I hope i will getting better soon...

@ noted that BOH and KUAN are withdraw, They going Ktar jor...

A nightmare to TD1? No more Class rep, Hate it ...
@@ Ah fei told me maybe he will go MMU, but it is only IF...

@@@ Many people failed in Math II, Cheer up for those who failed in MATH...

@@@@ Hope Kar Wai's Appeal for his Public Speaking Success!!!

Anyway Wish you have a nice day in sem 3 for UTAR friends,

Wish you Happy for those not sastified with your results,

May be you are the only ONE who lucky =)

Our's distance~

2009-02-23T22:58:00.002+08:00

Its have been long time you didn't chat with me,
The longest time I didnt chat with you,
I realise that we nothing to talk besides studies,
I can't even find any sub-topics to chat with you,
Does we have any same interest?
Yea, may be there is one,
but why we lack of chatting lately,
I wondering you are busy or what,
Our's distance is getting far away from each others,
I feel so unhelped and don't know what to do next,
Just like last week saturday,
I purposely nudge you and then we said nothing 1,
Look like its the limit of us?
I hope that we will be getting better soon,
in sem3?
My result is going out soon,
Pray for me please~

Songs to describe Myself (part 2)~

2009-02-22T00:43:00.001+08:00

James Morrison - Broken Strings (Feat. Nelly Furtado)

Let me hold you
For the last time

It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can't feel anything

When I love you
It's so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking,
It's the voice of someone else

Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything
that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to save

It's like chasing the very last train when it's too late

Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell something that ain't real

Well the truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late (too late)

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I cant tell you something that ain't real

Well truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again

Songs to describe Myself (part 1)~

2009-02-22T00:20:00.006+08:00

Without You - Hinder

I just want to be alone tonight
I just want to take a little breather
Cause lately all we do is fight
And every time it cuts me deeper
Cause something changed you've been acting so strange
And it's taking its toll on me
It's safe to say that I'm ready to let you leave
Without you I live it up a little more everyday
Without you I'm seeing myself so differently
I didn't wanna believe it then
But it all worked out in the end
When I watched you walk away
Well I never thought I'd say I'm fine without you

Called you up cause it's been long enough
And you said that you were so much better
We have done a lot of growing up
We were never meant to be together
Cause something changed you've been acting so strange
And it's taking it's toll on me
It's safe to say that I'm ready to let you leave
Without you I live it up a little more everyday
Without you I'm seeing myself so differently
I didn't wanna believe it then
But it all worked out in the end
When I watched you walk away
Well I never thought I'd say I'm fine without you

Cause something changed you've been acting so strange
And it's taking it's toll on me
It's safe to say that I'm ready to let you leave
Without you I live it up a little more everyday
Without you I'm seeing myself so differently
I didn't wanna believe it then
But it all worked out in the end
When I watched you walk away
Well I never thought I'd say I'm fine without you
Without you
Without you
Without you

I just want to be alone tonight
I just want to take a little breather

Terrible Driver!

2009-02-21T23:14:00.002+08:00

Here the mad driver, I hope it won't be me. =p Enjoy yourself~

Can I?

2009-02-20T22:23:00.002+08:00

Can i win this time?
Du tup, Du tup, Du tup,
My heart beats faster than before,
I always have that feeling before my result come out,
We left 1 more week to know our sem 2 result,
Is that scary?
Scare disappointed myself,
I am putting all of my confidence, effort, spirit into it,
Can I really own?
GOD bless me...

Yeah?
I am fat mou at home these 2 week,
I doing nth within these 2 week,
Maple, Anime, Manga, Movie, Drama, Pps, XG,
Is what I done within these 2 week.

I am confusing?

【愛情小測驗】從玻璃碎裂度看你的愛情復原度

2009-02-17T11:00:00.002+08:00

你站在窗邊，突然一塊石頭砸在窗戶的玻璃上，被嚇了一跳的你覺得玻璃怎樣了呢？
　
（一）玻璃中間裂了一條線　
（二）玻璃裂成一片蜘蛛網　
（三）玻璃全碎了　
（四）玻璃完好如初

＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝

〔解析〕

★玻璃中間裂了一條線

　　你就像這塊玻璃一樣，看起來滿堅強的，但是傷痕卻一直存在於你的心裡，久久不能消失，對於好強的你來說，哪能夠忍受呢？所以你會將傷痛化為報復，讓自己活得更好、變得更漂亮，讓他後。其實你對他在某些程度上的依賴滿重的，這樣的你要完全走出失　戀的陰影，大概需要半年的時間哦！

★玻璃裂成一片蜘蛛網

　　你失戀後，會不斷地想起和他的種種回憶，尤其在你感到寂寞的時候，思緒更是集中在往日的甜蜜之中，很難走出來。不過還好，因為玻璃碎裂的情況越嚴重，則心裡的傷痕復原的越快，所以這樣的現象會隨著時間漸漸淡去，不會太久的。但是也得要耗個三個月左右哦！

★玻璃全碎了

　　你是一個阿莎力的人，來得快，去得也快。你很容易因為一點小小的事物或感覺立刻墜入情網，而當感覺不對了，必須結束戀情時，你也很能夠看得開。選這個答案的你是最不令人擔心會想不開的。失戀當然使你難過，可能在大哭一場後，又能積極地面對生活了。你只要大約三天時間，就可將傷痕平復了！

★玻璃完好如初

　　其實不是玻璃沒裂，而是你在心裡保持它的完整，不希望它破。這樣的你，失戀後非常不容易走出他的陰影，出了門也儘可能地在路人甲、乙、丙中搜尋和他相似的身影。你要完全走出失戀的傷痕需要很長的時間，至少一年，甚至更久呢！人是不能一直活在回憶當中的，奉勸你一定要拿出勇氣來擺脫它，迎接新的生活，否則下一段更好的戀情可是不會到來的唷！

@@ I am 玻璃裂成一片蜘蛛網 types, how about you?~

Whose fault now?

2009-02-16T21:10:00.004+08:00

A boring day again,
Today I watched Anime as usual I did,
I am crazy in tracking Anime as well as Manga,
I go cut my hair also,
I quite satisfied with my hair style,
What I not satisfied is with the past,
the everything you did to me,
I don't know what to do and not dare to think,
You just act knew nothing yesterday,
May be its the best solution to us?
I think so...

We all just play by you,
I don't know why you want to do so,
I don't know what you think so,
I don't know what you gonna do next?
It was just unpredictactable,
it proved that you are untouchable,
but you chose to be honest yesterday,
I am really happy with that,
I thought all of these will continue,
You told me that everything is a mistake,
At least you told me that the post is not for me,
the story is just same like us,
I have to say sorry to "her fren" also,
Sorry for the everything that I did to you,
She told me at last,
I went to your blog also,
I can feel how sadness you went before,
it was just same to us,
but i really care the last word you wrote,
"好恨那男的与之前的我自己..."
I don't know whether the man you mentioned is talking about me,
but I hope you can calm down...

Starting from today,
will be no test for me,
because its untrue and I think i should conclude it,
My Final Mark for this test is FAIL,
My mind cannot without you just for a few minute,
Should i glad for it?
Why man needs a woman?
Does a woman is troublesome?
Do you agree?
I don't know~

New tag~

2009-02-14T23:58:00.017+08:00

RULES: The Rules are simple. Use Google, etc to search the answers to the questions below.Then you must choose a picture in the FIRST PAGE of result and post it as your answer.After that tag 7 people.

I tag :

@ Wei Hao

@ Chin Wei

@ Meng Teik

@ Soke Sien

@ Ezra Sang

@ Yenn Rou

@ Qing Ann

@ The Age of my Next Birthday :

@ A Place that I'd Like to Travel To :

@ A Favourite Food:

@ A Favourite Place :

@ A Nickname I Had :

@ College Major :

@ A Favourite Colour :

@ Name of My Love :

@ A Bad Habit :

@ The City I Live In :

@ The City I was Born :

@ Hobby :

@ Wishlist :

A Boring Day again~

2009-02-14T21:37:00.003+08:00

Guess what?
Today is Valentine's Day,
but i do nothing today,
Today, the first day without her,
I gonna do a test for myself,
Test on how many times I think of her each day starting from today of course,
the mark range for the test is from 0 to 100,
Just like school result,
40 mark means pass and below than 40 means fail,
I never lie you all,
Today i have been checked for her blog for around 10+ times,
Starting from 11am the time i woke up until now 9.43pm,
I keep thinking of how you would response to your friend who asking you { Are you okay? }
but you just dont want to reply them,
Lucky I still have a lot of friends,
who willing to help me,
Dailou, I really appreciate what you told me last night,
I am fine all the time,
Today i just watching some horror movie and playing maple with Clyde,
I really appreciate you who is willing to listen to me,
I am glad that I have you as a Best Friend,
Although i quiet lazy in Farming-.-,
I only interested in training or chionging,
Anyway thank you~

14-02-2009's mark = 20% ====p

Happy Valentine's Day~

2009-02-14T13:26:00.005+08:00

Anyway I wish those are happy;

And wish for those who are upset;

Its Okay~

2009-02-14T11:00:00.000+08:00

Ya,
I really put it down since the day you sms to me,
At that time,
I think I really dont dare to think about you,
We just over there,
but what happening now is,
everyone not include you are giving hope to me,
they said i should try 1 more time,
Thay why I got that way of thinking,
You are right,
I have an answer in my heart,
I know for those who are taking advantages of me,
and I never think of you that way,
Since from the day you sms to me,
I already treat you as my best friend,
even further than the 1st in my heart,
Dont need to say sorry again,
I scare your friend will blame me,
Turn back i will be feel guilt,
haha~

我真的受伤了。。。

2009-02-14T00:13:00.000+08:00

The Evil thought in my mind is expanding,
I never thought that you will start to say,
I thought we can just like before,
Acting know nothing and continue to cheat me,
but today you ended up this,
Is that you really cry just because of reading my blog?
My blog is nothing not even fo ryou, also for all of us,
Its only a tools for me to release my anger,
Everyone was talking about you before,
Are you taking advantages of me?
I begging them you are not,
I just can tell you,
You are the 3rd person in my heart,
You said that you are guilty,
but I think the really stupid one is me,
the one who dont want to accept the truth,
You dont need to say sorry,
I am the only one party is willing,
You request me that to forget about the past,
Its cant be removed from either my mind or your mind,
You said that its might be a nightmare for you or me?
but I think it is not,
Its just a piece of picture in my mind...
Yeah, Its true,
I am happy whenever i talk to you or Msn with you in net,
I accept the request from the your heart of being a true friend with me,
You dont need to feel guilt of the fact I treating you well,
I told you before I like the long hair you have,
You cannot just take it as a excuse,
I know that is not a excuse of cutting your hair short,
All I can say now is let it be the past of us...

I dont like to be lost,
but now I am a loser,
Eventhough I quite satisfy my study and my life,
but I am still a loser in Love and Friend relationship,
Its have been long time I have that way of thinking,
I just cant have a normal life,
I wont just give up like that also,
As Dailou quote [何必为了一个sifu, 而放弃更多的sifu呢？]
I will keep on searching and searching for my ms right. XD

Tagged by TRACY !!!

2009-02-13T23:34:00.001+08:00

1. Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
2. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 15 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
3. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
4. No tags back!!

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1. Will Crazy on Maple, but its ex story.
2. Dont like to eat too much Chocolate.
3. Like to take photos, of myself and friends, but dont like to take picture with my friend.
4. Like to listen music when i studying.
5. Dont like somebody is around me when i am studying.
6. Always think of weird and crazy things. -.-
7. Never Give up.
8. A very straight forward person.
9. Like to sleep and eat the most but lazy to do exercise.
10. Like manga or comics SO much~
11. Always stick to my lappy when there's internet. :)
12. Like to scold people if i could.
13. Will studying non-stop once in serious mood.
14. Like to win people.
15. Interested in searching girls.

the LUCKY one. =D

@ Wei Hao
@ Meng Teik
@ Chin Wei
@ Soke Sien
@ Yenn Rou
@ Wan Kah
@ Siew Lee
@ Ezra Sang
@ Pei Shan
@ Chyuan Ning

@@ PS : First time play tag, Sorry for those who kena...

Too much expectation making myself stressful~

2009-02-13T11:19:00.000+08:00

I did a lot of efforts on this sem2,
I swear that i must score straight A and getting 4.0 cpga,
I know that it is hard for me to score A in Writing for Science,
but this time and next time also,
Why I want to get 4.0 cpga,
it is because of I want to get full scholarship in degree,
here some seriuos news heard from my friend [Yong, my previous housemate],
He is now studying degree course in Setapak,
He told me his sem3 got 3.6 or 3.7 cpga,
now taking half scholarship,
In order to get full scholarship,
You must score above 3.9 cpga, or else lower than 3.9 and higher than 3.8 cpga,
You only can get half scholarship,
I did quite good in sem1,
I got 3.83 cpga last time,
Now i must score 4.0 in order to increase my cpga for foundation....

Everyone is counting me can score straight A in sem2 including myself,
because my coursework for Writing for Science got the highest in my class,
This is a very good chance given by god,
so, before exam,
I did a lot of researchs and search some essay topic for the exam,
and I lucky and kena 2 of it,
I think I wont be have any problems in essay part,
For the error identification,
I also did a lot of pass year paper,
discuss with friend,
but I still make a lot of mistakes in this exam,
For the section C, I think i wont be any problem also, HEHE,
Now onli pray for my paper is marking by a KIND lecturer...

All my talent subjects like Chemistry, Physics, Programming and Math,
I also will feel stressful at the night before the exam day,
I was studying all the time when i am free,
I even off my hand phone and my msn,
because I hate people asking me question when i am concentrating,
and I hate my housemate who also keep asking me weird questions,
until i cannot withstand it,
I not lecturer and not even GOD,
How I know the way you wrote is wrong or correct,
I also dont know their marking scheme,
Honestly, I dont have any tips in sem1,
but sem2 I got tips for Writing for Science and Public Speaking.
I never thought that for my most favaurite subject [Math],
I will make a lot of mistakes in the exam,
lucky I got re-check after I am done,
but the every question i checked,
there is for sure got a small mistake in the begining of the step,
and then it will make me lost whole mark for that question,
I only manage to re-check 2 question,
I hope my others question didnt make any mistake,
For the Problem Solving and Programming,
my class is at PA147,
and Ms Tee was my invigilator at that time,
I never thought that got 2 people was asking her question,
like What is Funtion? and What does the last question means?
I completely stunned that time,
I wonder why ms Tee will answer their question,
actually for my last question answer is almost correct,
but the starting part to prompt and get a value from user 1 wrong,
Why I know I am wrong?
because I saw them ask her question then i also go ask for helps,
HAHA,
lucky sia, if not i gonna give mark for her,
and this time you are sitting beside me also HAHA...

All I hope now is I can got 4.0 cpga in sem2,
I always believe that,
effort making yourself success,
practice more making yourself perfect,
and more Expectation will make yourself success, happy and stressful~

Sorry, I am back now!!!

2009-02-11T16:54:00.000+08:00

Its have been long time I didnt touch my blog.
Now i am Back~
Today I just finish our last sem2 subject which is Public Speaking,
Honestly, its quite easy,
but i did a lot of careless mistakes,
Its no doubt, I will at least do wrong 1 question whenever i saw you -.-
Yes, today I meet you,
and you are wearing the same color shirt as me [ Black ]...
LOL, i never thought that day when Problem solving and Programming exam you are sitting beside me.
Haha, never thought you are same class as me,
the only one times I same class with you these 2 fcking exam week.
I still can remember the day I first time meet you,
that time i was taking bus with Wei Hao,
and you were sitting just 1meter from me,
you was going KL central monorail that time,
I wondering where your house are...

Luckly I know one of my friend are know you,
I need to speed up to find out what your name,
You are different as the first time i met you,
now you are wearing glass during exam period,
your look just like a gentleman and look like very polite,
and today you just passing by me when you are going toilet.
OMG! Dont think of others ways,
I am normal ok,
Just curious to find out who you are!!!

In this sem 2,
I quite enjoy during the time with my friend and family,
and I am happy my result is improving and better than before,
I wish I could score straight A in sem2 and getting 4.0 cpga,
not only this time, but also everytime i exam,
I hope I can exceed people and got the highest place where I can feel it,
My result is pretty good but my family problem are comes to me,
Last month, my mum and grandmum was quarrelling just for the KFC -.-
My mum was scolding us,
why we want to take KFC as dinner,
can't you all take some food that are not "ri qi",
LOL, then my grandmum was hurt because she think that,
my mum scolding is equal to scolding her,
at last, my grandmum can't withstand with my mum's nagging and the war is starting,
That time i was went out to help my mum buy food near my house and I miss it,
What I knew from my cousin is,
My grandmum is crying after that and standing outside,
My Mum was just acting know nothing,
and My sister was crying because of my grandmum was crying,
COME ON man,
Just a dinner, don't need to be like that,
This all is caused by my mum,
After that, I was keep on blaming on my mum,
and my Mum and my grandmum was in cold war mood until the CNY,
Luckly they are fine now...

Another problem here,
its all about my 2 sister,
the elder 1 everynight like to hang out with her friend to yamcha and so on,
everytime need us to wait her although she ask us to sleep early,
hey, you are girl,
mum and dad is worrying about you because you go out for a whole midnight,
and the younger 1 is the most serious 1,
because she just like dunwan study and keep hangout with friend to Sg wang,
she still small ok,
My family always warning her and dont allow her to go out every week,
the friend she going with are girl and her boy friend -.-
Her ex boyfriend are treating her quite well,
buy a HP for her, a bear and so on....
I dont know the reason why they were done,
but what i know now is she is getting a new boyfriend today,
last week she was so stupid and stuborn,
go to HIS house to stay summore still cheat us going a GIRL house stay,
For now on,
My family was strictly looking at her,
we wont let her do anything wrong,
ITS so troublesome....

I dont know why these problems are coming to me,
but i wonder why this EVIL mind is regaining back again,
I thought i was forget all about him,
and start a new life at UTAR with my study now,
but there is some new things to me again,
when I can let you all go?
onli GOD know!!!

To be continue [Picture Album of year 2008]

2009-01-25T23:45:00.000+08:00

July 2008

LPS farewell, Picture with my batch and my junior~
The only few guys in LPS, EXTINCT SPECIES!!!

August 2008

Picture taken after our Computer Studies Debate, my group score the highest ^^, although the team oppose is almost banana gang! PRO, Thank to u all... Notice that First time in formal dress~ Hehe [cute Fei, Anson, Zhen Bao, Me, Kar Wai, Shin Tat]

First Time we meet and now we become a very good friend~ [Tracy and Me] Hehe =)

TD1~~~

TD1 formal wear[ Zhen Bao, me, Cute Fei, Kar Wai]
Casual Wear[ Chun Kit, Chin Wei, Frog zai, Sushi]

Ms secret~ You will Know wad i mean... LOL

September 2008

The day we in theme park GENTING HIGHLAND!!!!

OMG!!!! Where is others? playing poker -.-

Yummy leh? We BBQ at genting 1 wor, 1st blood... LOL~

Look the battery... LALALA~

Where we all look at? gt lenglui huh?!

Cool pose~

October 2008

Yeng mou?! the day my hair had grown alot!!!

November 2008

Where you pointing on?!

Eating chicken rice~

My Birthday, they brought me to eat Pan Mee ^^

December 2008

The last day ms Tan teach us in UTAR, Sad leh, You the a good lecturer, I will MISS you forever~

At LAST, MY LATEST PICTURE~ XP

Picture Album of year 2008~

2009-01-25T23:12:00.000+08:00

January 2008~

My Ah gong Birthday cake~ Hehe... Its Yummy~

My Ah Gong and Ah Ma, Sweet eh~

February 2008

Farewell party for going NS on march ~
(me, Chun Shin, Eng Eng, Chee Keong, Rick Khen, Karen, Yi fei)
I have lost my CNY picture, Paiseh~

March 2008

My Best Malay Friend met at NS~ [Fit3]

April 2008

Picture taken when the holiday in NS, Pls take note that my hair is botak -.- ~[Yuen Wei]

May 2008

Taken when Long going back home early~
Ignore the guy who open the leg 1.. HAHA~
TOP left to right[Lesley, Ah beng, Ah Fong]
Middle[me, Ah long, John]
BottoM[Leon]
L4 THE BEST!!!!
I will NEVER forget u all~

Good Luck.... 28/10/08的心情日记

2008-10-28T21:08:00.000+08:00

I have to say sorry to my Chemistry lecturer, Miss Tan,
Today I am not paying attention when you are conducting the lesson,
because I "chik chak" with Chun Kit,
and i cant even catch up what you talking in the class,
I think today i will be revising back and,
will ask others when i am not understand...

We chat a lot of things today,
and i heard a bad news from him,
I am so sory to him,
I should not asking you that things,
luckly he dont mind anythings la....
His father has been died since he was primary six,
When the moment i heard the new,
I feel so sorry and
I was thinking how toughness he has been faced when his father was passed away,
He is the elder children in the family,
and is one of the 4 children in his family,
I also worrying about his mother,
who was take care four of them in the six years after her husband was passed away,
a kind, caring and firm mother...
Chun kit is a second friend i know who dont have father in his family,
the first friend is Ban Siong,
but the cases was different with chun kit,
his father was abandoned him and his mother since he was small,[I cant remember]....

Today Chun Kit also tell of his story to me,
he said is the time you must be let her over,
dont think too much on hers,
However I really cant do it,
She is the second person i met and i love so much after Yenn Rou,
I think i might have some tough day to forget her,
and a longest day than Yenn Rou,
When the chemistry class going end,
I just realise that Dillion was sitting beside her,
OMG!
Izit they are in the starting of love?
yesterday i went to see her's blog,
and i saw a long, long, long post is about him,
[Actually i checked for everyday when I got online]
I really dont want talk about her,
So....
change the topic, XD
Today our lecturer class from TD1 to TD4 were celebrating Miss Tee Birthday,
actually her birthday was at yesterday,
but she so "thick face" and informed us 1 week early,and said to us "
You guys should know what to do on the coming week"=.=
I even EMO-ing when today i heard she said
I regret that i didnt inform others lecturer class student,
then I wont be have so many birthday cake today" =.=!!!!
so thick face,
Leong, Anson, Tan Fei and me purposely dont want go out for taking the photo,
damn think face lo....
ZZZZ

依然的感觉。。。 25/10/08的心情日记

2008-10-27T16:23:00.000+08:00

今天我很早就起床了，
因为xxx昨天向我告知我明天不能再迟到了，
因为每次我跟xxx出去，
都是xxx在那里等了我一下子，
所以这次xxx醒悟，
先向我说声，
以便我不会再迟到，
为什么我们今天会出去的呢？
因为xxx妹妹今天生日，
她又要跟随朋友出去玩，
但是xxx的妈妈都很不放心，
所以叫了做xxx的xxx来做保镖，
当然的，
到了那里我们当然是分开走的，
我还以为xxx会随便穿呢！
所以我就随便穿了Pink colour的T-shirt和牛仔裤，
xxx就穿了skinny的牛仔裤和白色的上衣，[xxx很瘦的]
蛮搭配的，
xxx的妹妹也不错吗，
也穿了类似的服装，
两个都是黑白配，
哈哈。。。。

我们很早就到了那里，
因为为了方便买票，
今天我们选择了High School Musical 3[我想看的，而xxx不想看的，真的委屈xxx了] 和Tropic Thunder,
High School Musical 3 真的很好看，
而且都很感人，
害我都很想哭了，
连xxx第一和第二集都没看的人都说不错，
至于Tropic Thunder也是不错，
很搞笑，都快笑爆肚皮了，
在我们看戏之前，
我们到了Mc Donald，
和吃了我们常叫的Filet-O-Fish Set,
这次是我请xxx肋，
因为xxx说xxx快破产了，
可是我的生日快到了，
还要我请xxx，
真可恶！
不过我知道xxx那一天一定会请我吃东西的，
还有xxx在那里选择了我的生日礼物了，
就是Rexona，
因为我说我要实际的东西，
不过我很感动，
和这是我第一个收到的生日礼物，
我会好好的利用的。。。

不知为何，
每次跟xxx出去，
我都很开心的，
因为我会一直说些三八的话给xxx知道，
而且我也把我和她的故事跟xxx讲，
哈哈，
xxx当然的也还未找到马子，
可是xxx告诉我学校有很多LengLui,
LOLS...

Argh... Why the feelings again.... 22/10/08的心情日记

2008-10-22T19:29:00.000+08:00

Today I having my chemistry practical at pa156,
Haha, So nice,[Its a air con eqquiped practical room]
Shiok lo,
but when i stepped into the lab,
I can't feel the coldness of air-conditioner,
because it is just on no long time ago,
Hehe,
I was caring about who is my lecturer for practical,
I hope wont kena Ms Leong and MS Tan already,
Because Ms Leong is strict in practical and Ms Tan is my previous lecturer,
so now i wanna try new lecturer,
Haha,
Luckly, we kena Ms Audrey,
but today is Ms Tan replace her,
Hope Ms Audrey wont so strict as Ms Leong,
then I think I can enjoy when attending her class....

BUT today is a unluckly day for me,
don't why,
After i saw dillion was joinning her group to carry out the experiment,
then my mind keep think of some things,
I can't concentrate at all,
Although i was done searching some info for today practical,
and i was used around 2 hours to complete,
sommore i go through the steps already,
but after matter happened,
I can't remind all of this things,
For examples,
1. forgot pour distilled water at first then go put the P4O10 to the test tube,
[ Kena marah from OL. T.T]
2. the experiment result was failure
[Don't know why...]
3. I accidently touch the tips of dropper which contain universal indicator to one of my test tube, and the colour of black colour was changed to orange.
[LOL, WTF, such as serious problem happened and ofcourse kena marah from OL again... -.-]
4. I got 2 purple colour of the chemical...
[DUnno why]

I think all of these are cause from him and her...
ZZZZZZZZZ

Today we skipped 1 experiment,
because the experiment was dangerous and corrosive,
so we end the class 1 and half hour early than the time,
Then my gangs dunno where to go,
so just follow Dai Lou,
HAHA,
Finally, they decided to on pc at UTAR's CC,
ofcoz, i also follow my gangs,
Then gals gang said wanna go eat chicken rice,
then my 4 gangs also go la,
they all depend on me,
HAHA,
this time my gangs add 1 more people-Zhen Bao,
Actually I don't like him,
but he say wanna follow us,
actually he wanna follow Anson nia,
[shhh. act dunno anything]
such like gay soung,
LOL,
We spend RM71.50 for our 12 people lunch,
While we are enjoying our food,
Luckly the staff there told us tat some1 is samn-ing,
So, Dai Lou and Chin Wei faster go have a look lo,
Luckly didnt kena la,
hehe....
the others guys gangs why disspear liao,
because they all are addicted playing game at CC,
they can play games till full de,
Don't worry, won't die want.....

After that,
We going attend Problem Solving and Programming,
Luckly we didnt late for entering the class,
before that we was going NewJunction to print and photostat some things,
Due of the table are not enough,
so i moved 2 backwards,
in order we 4 ppl can sit in 1 rows,
then the SHIN TAT say wah,
you ar like that also can,
Sit with us la,
soung like bo song,
then shin tat wanna move inwards 1 ofcoz,
but Meigie dunwan,
She sound also like wanna kill me like that,
so Chuan ar....

After programming,
we go for Math replacement class,
Actually we can go back home early today,
but thank to mouse(Ms Lim),
So we have to attend her replacement class,
I dunno why she got so many free time,
No need teman her BF 1 meh?
Or dun hav BF yet??? XD

为什么会有这种感觉？？？ 21/10/08的心情日记

2008-10-22T19:24:00.000+08:00

今天是Chun Shin的生日，
他算是我的知己之一，
有时候我遇到难题我都会找他的，
我当然一大早就祝贺他了，
我都不懂他还知道我的生日吗？
哈哈，
昨天我又流鼻血了，
不知道为什么会这样，
我一直对自己说是因为热气，
可是热气也不会那么的多次吧？
所以我从以前到现在都不是很敢吃巧克力和喝Milo，
现在我也不再理了，
我都照喝Milo，
哇，很久没喝Milo了，
很甜，和香，和好喝。。。。

今天上了Maths Class,
我觉得都很简单，
可能还没到很难的课吧, 很期待呢。
过后我们就上Maths Tutorial,
还好是Miss Pua教我们，
要不然我一定不明白的，
那时候的我，
就坐在她的后面，
我看到她跟Boh or Kuan说些话，
然后Boh or kuan转过头望了一下，
原来我才发现她是在问Boh or Kuan, Dillion去了哪里，
为什么还没进班，
那时我心里觉得很难受，
他没进班吧了，
都那么的紧张他，
然后Dillion就进班了。。。
原来是他向她借了tutorial，
所以才一直想问人他在哪里，
原来如此，
害人那时都没心情上课，
可是她的心里是想什么的，
我本人不敢闻过，想过。。。

接着就是Problem Solving & Programming的课了，
本人是完全不明白老师在讲什么的，
因为我本身就是个电脑白痴，
SEM 1的Computer科目，
我都是靠luckly的，
这次我真的得加倍努力了，
还有今天是我遇到Chemistry最难理解的一天,
可是还好我明白老师在讲什么，
但是你叫我去写出来，
我一定不行的。。。

过了三天也是Kia Siang的生日了，
哈哈，
这个时候是最多我认识的朋友的生日了,
我的期待是他跟她吧了，
希望他/她可以像我想象中的那样吧，
那一定很sweet...

My best friend。。。 18-10-08的心情日记

2008-10-20T18:01:00.000+08:00

Today is saturday, the day I can sleep late and wake up late,
Morning I received calls from someone,
but i dunno who is him,then went to eat my breakfast + lunch[lols, everytime i sure skip breakfast]
suddenly I received 1 msg from someone,
Ya... Is him [Yuen Wei]
I was curious why he will looking for me,
i thought he having exam next week,
but what is the point he looking for me,
after that, I call back him,
he wanna jio me go yamcha,
as i thought,
he is calling me go for yamcha and wanna kill the time,
lols,
then i quickly finished my breakfast,
and waiting him reach my house,
because before that he was attending his pengawas MP at school,
As usual, at first I didnt watch to him directly,
because I scare -.- [Dunno why, zzzz]
then he ask me why I so nervous,
I replied him i didnt....

We went to Steven Corner, [cheaper and nice yamcha place]
He also said its near to cyber cafe,
I already predicted that he want to go cc play dota with me,
Although I dont like the game,
but i have to see the situation,
this time is play with him,
so I always tolerate with him and play the game with him,
LOL....

In our conservation,
he said that his gang was Jun hao, Kok Wai and Chee Meng,
HAHA,
same as me 4 people gangs,
Jun Hao, my friend also,
he is a Pusat Sumber Pengawas just like me and Kok Wai,
three of us are the only 3 people in our form,
LOL [as you all know man are the extincted specieses in Pusat Sumber]
I know him since primary 1,
We are bext friend last time,
but due of something,
our relationship is worse,
until now, the relationship is not so bad la...
Kok Wai, another naib pengerusi in Pusat sumber, [can be considered as my enemy]
I hate him because he very jia infront of me,
He also got told him about he dont like me,
So wad ar... Geramjinya....
Chee Meng, a new student and currently is studying form 6 biology class with them,
I dunno much of him,
I only know he is a joker just like andrew in the class...
Well, I quite enjoy the game when I am playing with him....

Time passed very fast,
I getting the mode of laziness,
I feel some kinds of laziness to do my homework,
Aiks....
Tonight i going stay over one night at bear bear house,
the reason is wanna go his house online because of my house unable to access internet,
but the line there is not so good,
keep dc,
So this is what i angry for....
I ask bear bear some question about the public speaking,
He told me that he got full mark of his presentation,
SO lc...
But its a fact....
Luckly he got suggest some topic for me....

好像... 16/10/08的心情日记

2008-10-17T16:22:00.000+08:00

今天又是一个长久的课的一天，
我喜欢读书的感觉，
就是讨厌考试的感觉，
我也讨厌搭公共交通的感觉，
从我家到学校有整整一个半小时的时间，
[如果没有塞车， lolS]
再过不久我就得尝试那种的感觉了，
因为week 4开始就得自己搭公共交通回家了，
[Week 4, -.- My ....]
Pj的屋子快不要租了，
而且week6 可以搬到更好的屋子了，
hehe, shiok and excited...

当时就是考试和Asignment繁忙的时候，
希望我能应付，
这次我对我自己下了目标，
就是要保持或比之前更好，
希望我可以，
当然我也要你们的支持啊，爷爷~
HAHA...

我懂我这几天为什么我那么不高兴了，
我的旧病好像要复发了，
怎么办....
感觉上又回到了跟他在一起的时候的忧郁症和自痹症，
那时候我时常说他对我冷谈还是什么的，
所以我自己也就会忽思乱想的，
当我回到我自己的班时，
我都不告诉别人的，
而且我都很少跟人沟通，
这次我好像又回到了一前那样，
打从开学我就快点找定时的朋友来交往，
也就是我的那四个人的Gang,
但是我发觉我很难跟他们沟通，
Ah Fei都是很少跟我们的，
至于Anson和Leong都是一伙的，
他们都很喜欢去computer LAB开电脑的，
而我是最讨厌去学校开电脑的，
很慢，而且line也很差，
今天我们有两个小时多的时间breaks,
我用了一下子的时间来吃我的午餐，
然后还有两个小时的休息，
我不懂我要去哪里，
所以我就选择了跟大佬他们，
可是我终觉得我不是属于他们的一份子，
我都跟他们没有话题的，
所以在选位子的时候，
我也就帮了Anson和Leong霸个位子，
可是最后还是被那几个可恶的人霸了，
我尝试跟他们讲这两个位已经有人了，
为什么他们还是那么的不讲理的，
反而还叫我不要坐这边，
还叫我去跟她坐，
让这个位子给他，
吊啦，
我最讨厌这种不顾别人感觉的人，
我本身已经是个很有感触的人，
拜托你们顾一下我的感觉，
不要再把我和她来当笑柄了，
我自己都已经很痛苦了，
所以我就这样的跟他们做了，
而且我根本都没有出过什么声音，
当时我就感受到了我自己很自痹，
我喜欢我这次可以摆脱以前的感觉，
终觉得只有音乐是我的好朋友。。。

不止只有这些旧朋友回来吧了，
我好像又开始一直留鼻血了，
而且这次是在外面了，
感觉好像很严重，
我希望不要在像以前那样，
每一天都留超过两次的鼻血，
还好今天只有一次吧了，
希望不是什么癌症吧。。。
[太夸张了]
哈哈哈哈哈哈。。。。

Today's mood = -1%... 14/10/08的心情日记

2008-10-14T19:43:00.000+08:00

Tuesday, a toughest day in a week in UTAR,
Today i having my class start from 9am until 5pm.
Such a busy day,
Morning, I will be going for Maths lecturer and tutorial class.
Our Maths tutor is Ms pua, [YEAH, happy XD]
but today she is not coming to our class,
so Mrs Chuah will be replacing her for 1 week,Mr Chuah,
a old guys who wearing a spectacle and a thin guys,
He teaching us a wrong solution for determining which function is One to one function....

After that I having lunch with my gangs (Leong, Anson, Fei and me) XD
As usual, we go Pc block for having our lunch there.
[Because Ah Fei dont like PA Block food, LOL]
After ate lunch,
we rush for our 3rd class today, [Problem Solving and Programming]
I was worrying about programming,
I heard from someone asid that programming is a hardest subject in the 2nd sem,
but i was trying to think that it is a easy subject,
I hope I wont so worry this subject like i facing English Language,
In sem 2, I will be facing 2 weak subject which is Public Speaking and Writing for science,
In order to maitain my cgpa well in sem 2,
I have to work hard for others subject,
so I hope that it is a easy subject,
At the moment my lecturer came in to the class,
WOAH! [is a Lenglui and young lady]
her speaking is quite ok,
At least she is quite kind and treat us like friend,
We end the class at 1 hour but we still having 1 more hour,
So we arguing with her to let us go early,
Finally,
she say we can leave the class after we done her work,
Hehe, So nice what....

Haiz,
Actually early end the class is a bad new for my class,
because we still have a last class today which is chemistry,
then now we having 1 and half hours break after programming class,
so, of course,
My gang will be going CC [Computer lab] as usual,
So sien la today,
After playing half hour at the lab,
then i decided to enter class early...
At class,
I feel so helpless and loneliness,
sawing ck group except Tracy and Chin Wei talking gossip and i cant jion them,
Tracy going out with TD4 and Chin Wei was reading novel at the class,
When i talk to Leong, Anson and Jia Cong,
I found that actually I dont have much topic with them,
Is it we are came from different background and different interests,
we talking not more than 20 sentence then no more topic can talk liao,
Then I go to Chin Wei there and accompany her,
Suddenly, Ck, Dai Lou and frog Zai were joining us,
Dai Lou wanna listen me and her story,
then I ma honestly told them lo,
What I hurt the most is about yesterday sensitive topic,
Its about the Effective Kissing topic,
Dai Lou told me that,when my group were doing outline,
He saw her keep watching Dillion,
We think she may be scared Dillion minds,
So she was keep watching him,
then I quickly run away from them to avoid listen what they saying,
I also feel that my relationship with her is getting worse...

After that my chemistry lecturer was came in which is Ms Tan teck Yee,
Hehe,
Actually she quite good de,
She giving us a lot of the informations but she is quite slow compare to others lecturer,
The first topic of the Chemistry is related Periodic Table as i have learned from Form 4,
but its quite detail and deep in the periodic table...
In the way I going back home,
I was worrying about this sem i cant score more than 3.8 cgpa in the final exam,
So,
Start from now i have to work more hard as sem 1,
and put more effort at those weak subject...

My UTAR life is getting hard and hard,
and I is getting lonely and lonely....

My Recovering Song,

Homeless from Leona Lewis,

Waiting here
For you to call me
For you to tell me
That everything's a big mistake

Waiting here
In this rainfall
Feeling so small
This dream was not suppose to break

I'm so sorry now
For the pain I caused you
Wont you please forgive
Please

But you don't love me anymore
You don't want me anymore
There's a sign on your door
No vacancy, just emptiness
Without your love
I'm homeless

In this cold
I'm walking aimless
Feeling helpless
Without a shelter from the storm

In my heart
I miss you so
your touch
And the bed that used to be so warm

I'm so sorry now
For the pain
I caused you
Wont you please forgive
Please

But you don't love me anymore
You don't want me anymore
There's a sign on your door
No vacancy, just emptiness
Without your love
I'm homeless

My, My baby
I'm sorry

But you don't love me anymore
You don't want me anymore
There's a sign on your door
No vacancy, just emptiness
Without your love
I'm homeless

缓慢 from 神木与瞳，

一双铁翅膀送我到这地方
天快亮舍不得这机场
缓慢的游荡在拥挤的机场风一样

多少荧光屏总是闪烁不定
天与地在中间他来临
缓慢的北京有否我期待的一个你

忘记你说你会继续还是要结束
分开时只管哭我是否太迷糊
你是否仍在乎

等的太久不想继续也不愿结束
分开使我走出最遥远的旅途
最缓慢的脚步

一杯热咖啡滴不出我的泪
他是谁在拥抱的是谁
缓慢的流泪我没有太伤悲我以为

忘记你说你会继续还是要结束
分开时只管哭我是否太迷糊
你是否仍在乎

等的太久不想继续也不愿结束
开使我走出最遥远的旅途
最缓慢的脚步

woo...wo...woo...

忘记你说你会继续还是要结束
分开时只管哭我是否太迷糊
你是否仍在乎

等的太久不想继续也不愿结束
开使我走出最遥远的旅途
最缓慢的脚步

woo...wo...woo...

Better man from Robbie Williams,

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain
Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time
As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man
Go easy on my conscience'
Cause it's not my fault
I know I've been taught
To take the blameRest assured my angels
Will catch my tears
Walk me out of here
I'm in pain
As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man
Once you've found that lover
You're homeward boundLove is all around
Love is all around
I know some have fallen on stony ground
But Love is all around
Send someone to love
need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain
Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time
As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doin' all I can
To be a better man

Better in time from Leona Lewis,

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow i can't forget you
After all that we've been through
Going , Coming
Thought i heard a knock
Thinking that (I deserve it)
Now i have realised
that i really didn't knooOooOw
If you didn't notice
You mean everything(quickly I'm learning)
To love again (all i know is)
I'm be oooOook
Thought i couldn't live without you
It's going to hurt when it heals too
Oh yeaah(It'll All get better in time)
Even though i really love you
I'm gonna smile because i deserve too
Oooh(It'll all get better in time)
I could of turned on the TV
Without something that would
remind meWas it all that easy?
To just put us out your feeling
If i'm dreamin
Don't want to let it(hurt my feelings)
But that's the past (i believe it)
And i know that, time will heal it
If you didn't notice
Well you mean everything(quickly i'm learning)
Oooh turn up again (All i know is)
I'm be ok
Thought i couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
Oooh yeah(It'll all get better in time)
Even though i really love you
I'm gonna smilebecause i deserve too
ooh(It'll all get better in time)
Since there's no more you and me
(No more you and me)
This time i let you go
so i can be free
And Live my life how it should be
(No No No No No No)
No matter how hard it is
I will be fine without you
Yes i Will
Thought i couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
Oooh(It'll all get better in time)
Even though i really loved you
I'm gonna smile
cos i deserve too yes i do
(It'll all get better in time)
Thought i couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
yeaaaah Ooooh oooooh
(It'll all get better in time)
Even though i really loved you
Going to smile
cos i deserve too
Ooooooh

也许有一天 from JS，

也许有一天　我会爱上你
也许有一天　我们在一起
也许有一天　等一个
也许也许有一天　我们都忘记
如果一切都会过去　不如留点回忆
当我看着你的眼睛　我等的是奇迹
也许有一天　你会想起我
也许有一天　我们都忘记
就算一切都会过去　还是应该伤心
当你睁开你的眼睛　看一看我的心
如果一切都会过去　不如留点回忆
当我看着你的眼睛　我等的是奇迹　（我等的是奇迹）
也许有一天　你会想起我
也许有一天　我们都忘记
也许有一天　我们都忘记

Why why WHY.... 13/10/08的心情日记

2008-10-13T14:40:00.000+08:00

Such a bad mood today,
kissing really nice meh?
I know its fantasy and nice,
but i hope I wont do this on her,
What i decided last week?
So, JOE!!! Dont breaks the rules....

Today math lecturer is conducted by Miss Lim ( [TIKUS] is i heard from Wong)
I think she quite ok,
But not much good than Miss Pua,
I miss Miss Pua leh,
I hope Tutorial will be Miss Pua teaching us,
Anyway, today having class with her,
I feel that her class is quite boring,
I almost fall asleep at her class,
Dai lou, Loong and andrew also didnt bother what she say,
they keep play and play,
Sampai me nak join them, [HAHA]...

After having math class,
We have half an hours break,
so i decide not to eat so early,
then i enter class early...

OMG!!!!
My writing for science is Miss Kasthoori teachs leh,
what i heard from Bing, Wong and Yong,
She quite KONGBU!!!
Some more ask bing's class to debate, [ZZZZZ rite?]
I hope we wont debate,
Today she ask us to think some funny and interesting topic for us to write an essay,
then some one come out an idea,
the idea is quite good,
but i tink i this topic is quite hard for me ( NO MUCH IDEA ) to write.
then i pray i wont get that topic,
Unfortunately,
I got this topic and i was same group with her!!!!
so you yuan fen meh?!
then the class for us for come out a demo,
so they want both of us come out and do demo...
WAH!!!! so wad la....
I hope i can forget her,
but the feelings was coming back today.....

我应该怎么做呢？？？ 8/10/08的心情日记

2008-10-10T00:03:00.000+08:00

昨天星期三，

是成绩揭晓的日期，

原本我一早起来要跟朋友去学校拿成绩的，

可是我一ON MSN吧了，

大老就告诉我成绩可以从网上得知，

所以我就很着急的的去查个清楚，

果然是出了，

我心跳突然间跳得很快，

我很怕我得到了不好的成绩，

昨天跟爷爷讲，

不管三七五十六，

得超过３。８就可以了，

结果真的是超过了，

我得了３。８３，

我终于都松了一口气，

心里高兴及了，

我很不得想把这个喜讯给我妈妈知道，

我当然是高兴到跳了起来，

过了不久，

我拨了电话给她，

我真的不好意识，

因为我吵到她睡觉，

可是这事件重大，

所以就不理她咯，

结果她得了３。９５。－。－

很高的成绩，

haiz，不能赢她。。。

不过我已答应他，

我不要再拿比较，

跟自己比较就可以了。。。

Anyways; XD

Thx for him and myself for did so much for my exam...

I will be more work hard at 2nd sem...

今天看了她的blog，

“someone called me too.

so long never talk to him.chatted for about 10mins. *happy*

but i missed the another day,

the longest time i ever chat with him on the phone XD hehe.*

dont wan to think too much. but im happy enough.* =X "

得知她还很怀念他，

所以我心里多么的不难受，

不过我早就料到的了，

那我渴望不到的爱，

我再用什么方法都的不到她的心的，

所以我已决定了。。。

不是我的就不是我的，

再那么的固执也得不到的，

一切就随缘吧～

今天她的blog也写了。。。

"everything should be to have an end. but when the end is coming?

i really want to know.

maybe it's just like what did someone says,

'sometimes things might not come up with an answer at the end of the day.'but i wish to know.

it doesnt matter what the ending will be.

or should i stop thinking about this anymore?

but.. i know i cant.perhaps everything will gonna end soon.

because i have decided something.i hope i can do it.

anyways,

i will still go on my life as usual =D"

I hope the someone is me,

but i know the someone is not me,

I hope she will be thinking more on me,

I hope that everything will be happen as what I expected,

but,

i know it will not comes true.

I hope the days will come to me....

痛苦的度过快乐。。。22/09/08的心情日记

2008-10-01T00:54:00.000+08:00

今天我们决定了要早起来然后早点去GENTING玩，

我还以为早上八点就要出发了，

害我早上五点就起来，
最后才决定十点半才去，

哈哈。。。

一大早起来，

只有我和LOONG起升吧了，
所以我们都不懂要做什么，

想早点冲凉可是却怕很冷，

又怕吵到他们，

所以我们两个马蜡老就回去躺一下子，

突然又想起她，

然后就MORNING CALL她，

可是她的手机关了，

所以我就不懂要做什么了，

转眼间，

CK和其他人都一一的起来了，

CK就帮我们准备早餐，

很温馨呢！！！

果谁嫁了给他，

她一定很幸福的，

就办不到啦，

我连煮饭都不会，

真的很丢脸。。。

过后我们又换上衣服，

我这次跟的男生都很不爱打扮，

所以我怕我穿的太夸张他们会不爽，

可是我都不理他们，

我自己喜欢做的事情就可以了，

不要想太多啦，

这次我穿上了象宥嘉穿的衣服，

可是因为里面有衣服，

穿得我有肚腩，

不好看，

哈哈。。。

过后我们就坐了览车上去云顶，

我想要跟她一起坐，

可是怕不能够，后还好是同一辆览车，

我高兴及了。。。
在览车上我，CHINWEI和她拍了几张照片，

其实我有轻微的畏高，
可是在她面前我不能扮得那么的衰弱，

以我都一直撑着下去，

实我不是很怕的，

所以并没有什么大碍。。。

着我们就朝想向THEME PARK去，
我们第一玩的是很不刺激的玩乙，
只是在那边旋转了一下吧了，
接着我们就去玩比较刺激的，
哇，

真的很刺激，
其是那个跳楼机，

让我心跳停了一下，

玩完过后我感觉到我整身都松了，

我考试将久以来到现在，

我终于松了下来，

接着我们就去玩云宵飞车，

很刺激，

可是很不幸的LOONG的电话掉了，

愧得还那么的镇定，

过后MENGWEI陪他去找了一下，

还好找得回，

然这是一个很绍兴的旅行了。。。

最后痛苦的时候到了，
我们就去玩海盗船,

这次我感觉真的很晕，

我那时很想吐出来，

我一直忍着忍着，

最后我都忍到了，

可是我头很痛，

痛到我不想跟人讲话，
我又没有带风油出去，

这次我死了。。。

那时我根本就没有心情玩了，

只求他们快点回去。。。

我们吃了午餐后，

就说要去玩BOWLING，

我和她都没有玩，
我并不是要陪她不玩的，

我是因为我头很痛才不玩的，

他们就一直说我们，

弄得我很不爽，

过后我就睡了一下子，

当时我真的大错特错，
我应该趁那时候跟她谈天的，

可是我就选择了睡一回儿，
我真的后悔了。。。

接着我们就分为两批走，

而我当然是不跟他们去打机的啦，

我人生最讨厌的就是打机，

因为很浪费钱，
所以就跟女的去走街，

我不是为了要跟她的。。。

到了下午，

我真的不能顶了，

我的头快爆了，

真的很痛，
还要我等巴士等一个小时，

这一个小时我真的不懂要怎么过，

痛苦的一个小时已过了，

我想就可以要到家了，

所以很开心，

但是我在那个巴士跟加的DULAN，

我头很晕，

我觉得我快要吐出来了，

但是在巴士上所以就忍了下去，

一直到了家，

我睡了一阵子。。。

醒来过后才知道已经很迟了，

我就一面吃，一面看戏，

接着我们大家都因为很累所以就跑去睡了，

晚上十二点，

我跟CK在谈天，
谈关于她的事，

我告诉他我想放弃了，

可是却怕错过这次的机会，

所以我都不知如何是好，

我们谈了一个多小时，

我就有点累了，

所以就这样的睡了下去，

我们就是这样的渡过了今天。。。

我的第二次。。。 21/9/08的心情日记

2008-09-30T00:59:00.000+08:00

今天我很高兴，

因为我又跟我的UTAR朋友出去了，

这次是我们第一次出外游玩，

我跟他们一起的时候总是有一种很不一样的感觉，

我不知道是不是因为他们太爱搞笑了，

还是因为某某人，

所以气氛一定是不一样的，

事实上，

之前我跟那个人有些事情发生了。。。

当时我还由于我到底要不要出去，

我怕我很触到第二次的伤痛，

我犹豫了很久，

然后就有了一个决定，

我决定去了，

因为CK和CHINWEI一直叫我去，

所以我就去了，

反正我去还是不去都代表不到什么，

就把这次当做去玩玩吧，

让我在考完试后RELAX RELAX一下。。。

前一天晚上我还睡不着呢，

心里还是想这她，

我知道这场战是会打很久的，

所以我一定要振作啊！！！

我还以为我的东西会是最少那个，

可是我都错了，

我的东西是最多的那个，

哈哈。。。

很好笑，

因为我带了很多面包和吃的去，

因为我的病刚刚好，

所以我妈妈很烦的说，

要记得带那个又这个，

最后从原本只要带一个包包变去两个包包，

而且还要我帮他们拿两包食物呢！！！

不过我不可能不拿，

而让CK辛苦的，

看到他我就会心软，

所以就答应帮他拿两个包包咯。。。

我跟她和FROG仔约好一起去KL CENTRAL 的，

所以我们在MASJID JAMEK等待对方咯，

我将久以来，

都是人家等我，而我不等人的，

今天相反的是我等他们足足十五分钟，

不过等她都是应该的啦，

所以我也不埋怨什么，

到了那边我们跟大队集合，

然后就往巴士站等候巴士，

这当然也是我最害怕的时候啦，

还记得中五的时候，

我是一个人坐的，

而却是要那个奸人跟我坐，

还要我给他。。。。。

这见事情我怎么都忘不了，

所以这次当然很害怕没有人要跟我坐，

并且我跟他们没有那么的熟除了CK，CHINWEI 和她，

可是CK既然跟ANDREW 坐在一起，

反而我就跟大老做在一起，

他也不错吗，

可是我们还是没有话题可以讲，

所以我就选择睡觉来带过这尴尬的场面，

一转眼，

就到达了SKYWAY STATION，

我们搭了得士去了CK的别墅。。。

第一天我们的节目就是在那边过一天，

然后第二天才去GENTING玩，到了那边，

我们男的就玩牌，

女的就帮忙等下晚上的BBQ，

CK跟MENGWEI就起火，

我们其他人都很没有风度，

全部都让他们做，

而我们几个人就在那边贪世界，

瞬眼间，

就到了晚上，

在那时候一个很不应该发生的事情发生了，

SOKE SIEN只是不小心丢东西砸到ANDREW吧了，

就惹到他生气，

因为是两次都是不同地方，都砸到同样的人，

所以他当然很生气啦，

不过还好过了一阵子，

他没有事情了。。。

BBQ的时间到了，

哈哈，

很破不急待，

因为天台太小，

容纳不到十个人，

所以我，她，CHINWEI 和大老都在屋内，

我们另外煮了一点东西来吃，

我们决定不跟他们争，

可是最后我们都还是破了戒，

到外面BBQ起来，

哇！！！

原来自己烧的鸡是那么的美味的！！！

同时也想起妈妈一直的催我叫我不要吃热气的东西，

可是我还是管不着她，

因为实在是太美味了。。。

当时我跟那三位女生，FROG， CHINWEI 和她谈起天来，

我对他们说起了我小学的成绩跟现在是盼若两人，

们也很同情我，

他们也说了他们的家庭问题，
那时候的我觉得我很幸福。。。

到了晚上我们决定要晚通宵，
可是SOKE SIEN 很早就睡了，
我们九个人在客厅玩游戏，
我们都玩得很开心，
就这样到了四点我们才肯去睡觉，
明天一大早还得起来，
准备要上去玩个饱。。。

第二个的＂她＂... 30/9/08的心情日记

2008-09-30T00:23:00.000+08:00

在我考试之前，

我终于踏出我的第一步了，

一个很随便的第一步，

那一天我还记得，

我跟我的中学朋友出外YAMCHA，

那时的我总是很闷的，

我觉得我跟他们根本是拉不上关系的，

可能是因为我做的位置很不恰当吧，

因为我都被女生包围了，

平时跟我比较近的人都坐得比我远，

所以都让我很不自在吧，

当时我说不到两句就没有话题讲了。。。

同时当我要出去时，

她一直追问我到底喜欢谁，

我不可能就那样的告诉她，

对！！！我喜欢的就是你，

我绝对没有这种勇气，

这世界上可能会有这种傻瓜吧，

当时我犹豫了很旧，

我到底该不该告诉她一切呢？

我很怕我会再失去她，

就想韵柔的一样，

在我YAMCHA的时候，

我突然鼓起了勇气，

告诉她没错我喜欢的就是你，

她把我说的话就这样的带过，

后来，我打了电话给CK，

我把我做的一切都告诉了他，

他既然对我说叫我放弃了她吧，

因为她心中已有了人，

那个人还是DILLION呢！！！

无可否认，

他的确是很完美的男人，

长得又帅，又很会读书，人有高又瘦，

我那里可以跟他斗呢？！

过了一天的冷战，

我终于勇敢的对她说话了，

我对她说把前天的事情忘了吧，

可是对我来说她是我的第二个韵柔，

我绝不能放弃她的，

过了好几个星期，

也就是考完试后，

她对我说她已忘了DILLION，

因为她知道跟他不会有好结果的，

所以就决定放弃追求他，

我心里当然很开心，

我觉得我有机会了，

可是时间一天又一天的过去，

我们的感情是很不错，

可是我觉得她对我根本就没有意识，

我的朋友都试这叫我尝试多一次，

可是我已没有了勇气，

我怕我会再一次的被伤害，

同时的也伤害了你，

我觉得做朋友也很好的，

我至少能够每天跟她谈天就可以了，

我当然也希望大家不要再一次的把我们拉下水，

我不想再幻想下去了，

请你们放了我好吗？？？

第二深深爱的人。。。

2008-08-28T15:00:00.000+08:00

虽然在UTAR认识很多人，

不管是男生还是女生，

我都有对一些人有兴趣，

不过，

同时的我也遇到了，

第二个我深深爱的人，

她给我像当初我追求韵柔那样，

等了很久，

终于出现了，

我还以为我只是喜欢男的吧了，

总算遇到了你，

接下来就要看我怎么做了。。。

加油儿！！！

回忆成功的过程。。。4/1/08的心情日记。。。

2008-02-05T11:34:00.000+08:00

今天我终于都拿到驾车牌了！
哈哈，
回想起我真的付出了很多，
好象我拿到好的成绩那样，
心情多么愉快～
今天我也叫运嘉和应弘帮我定戏票，
因为嘉敏拜二就回了，
我们打算拜三出去～
可惜定不到我要看的戏，
咳～
晚上我一直在忙这些，
可是CLYDEZ一直都叫我去玩MAPLE，
＝＿＝。。。
没时间玩拉！

Weird feelings.... 3/1/08的心情日记。。。

2008-02-04T01:53:00.000+08:00

Today so sienz...
nth to do at home,
keep playing games,
n watch TV at home,
today my neighbour ask me,
whether me go STPM or college,
i SAid go A-levels at Ktar,
But she scold me back,
Gud result den go STPM,
Not Gud go college..
Deng,
I decided nt going back to SChool d,
i dunwan go back do LPS things!
N i hate the DIsiplin RULES,
N i hate the ns RULES!!!
must short hair at all,
den my grandma kacau me,
told my neighbour tat i wan study the course which is very exp d,
wtf!
What i course i wanna study nid u all decide?
No ways...!
actually i stil tinking tat,
Engineering or Pharmacy???!
stil tinking it!
>.<
Actually i not tinking at all,
haha,
nid ask others info ba,
But they all sure say c ur interest,
zzz,
My interest is MATH n CHEMISTRY,
Physic no way!

Today restourant 1 tables onli!
near cny edi,
Stil no ppl wan come to eat???!
i feel so sory to my boss la,
nth do at there,
n watch TV there waiting time to pass,
den 9.30pm liao can get $$ liao,
so wat u noe,
den he ask me go when Chu Xi, Chu1 n Chu2,
but i reject the chu1 n chu2 d,
No double la!
stil Rm20,
summore ask me go morning n night,
sumtime onli Rm20,
but last time he gav me Rm30,
so less!!!
so i decided not going!
haha...
Pls Pls PLs...
All come my restourant eat!
so i Wil got more $....

1st failure!!?! GPQ sux... 2/2/08的心情日记。。。

2008-02-03T02:32:00.000+08:00

Today i miss the chance to celebrate birthday wit cly n BJ,
BJ is my guild mate,
he very nice too,
the party start at 6,
but i gt work at 6,
sob, sob, sob...
they gt mega them...
NICE guild ever~
today also the day of GPQ,
Guild Party Quest,
its SUX,
wasted me 2hours,
n hunting nth there...
luckly i pro at stg1,
stg1 is test our memory ability,
2nd stg more sux...
JUMp quest...
lol, i fAll down so many times...
Finally we left few mins onli,
WTF,
Boss haven kill, eq haven hunted!!!!
1 more stg den we can fight boss liao,
But,
IF we got all eq,
den fight boss,
we dun hav SPEARMAn also,
how to kill!!
healer 1 ppl onli...
But,
nevermind,
we gain exp ^^
Conclusion : Fail Gpq

After tat i go kerning pq wit clydez, fei n soul,
wah nice also ma,
i Pro clicker...
>.<
but the soul n cly make me miss 2 times!
WTF,
they click slow,
so we missed it...
Haiz...
All the thing, i fail to do well,
hope can change it....

Wtf?!?? such a FCK day! 1/2/08的心情日记。。。

2008-02-02T01:56:00.000+08:00

Today i so cham,
so early my sis kacau me 4 eating mee,
WTF,
cant bungkus 4 me meh?
must wake me up den onli can eat?
yest i 4 onli slep leh,
nid slep summore,
afterwards we getting start to clean OUR room,
so DIRTY,
i HATE cleaning my room,
coz my nose very sensitive 1,
cant tahan hapuk 1,
so i hate the most is cleaning amari,
Haha,
B a proud n clever BROTHER,
i ask my Bro cleaning the most hard work job,
den me do the easy job,
coz he too big n strong,
giv him exercise is the best,
DUN BLAME me pls...
After 3 hours,
we havent finish cleaning our room,
den i decided tmr start again,
onli left the clothes n books haven put into box onli,
others all settle liao...
NIGHT time is my playing times,
i always play from 6 to 3am onli go slep,
Today i very dulan,
Those who NOOBS pls dun play maple!!!
Wtf,
today ludi pq i meet a noobs + betrayer!
fck him,
betray my PT,
make me miss,
TYLES n SHINOBI1098....
i CURSE u 2 cant find gal forver!!!!
haha....
After no more mood,
go play my noob skill knight,
train it til lv lor,
den clydez ask me go MPs there,
train, train , train....
haven reach 5 mins,
TIo EXPEL again!!!
tio expel n giv slot 4 a HS-er!!!
Wtf,
i noe knight no nice skill 4 pt,
deng lar...
make me more angry n dulan!
luckly, juv n soul giv me a slot at gs5!
haha...
thx u all....

Happy Birthday, Clydez。。。31/1/08的心情日记

2008-02-01T02:16:00.000+08:00

Today si beh sien...
Whole day keep playing MAPLE,
but
Today i Finally finish the SDO patch,
but unfortunately i dun hav ID,
FCK,
find jor 1hour,
also cant found the main web site,
after tat, i found it,
so happy,
Den play jor few mins,
feel sien,
haha...

Today is my maple best frens Birthday,
Happy birthday to u,
hope u hav a nice day,
but,
today our guild-silvstar,
start fight war,
all scolding each others,
coz of XIAO QI,
izzit all gal r sensitive?
n XIAO QI??!
we juz talk about clydez jie finding bf,
den we wanna intro 7 n 1ppl,
7 is silvstar korkor,
den she start getting angry,
4 NTH!!!!
WTF,
after tat,
jefri quited guild,
zzz
omg
all left.....
SAD day...

整理？NO WAYS。。。30/1/08的心情日记

2008-01-31T02:00:00.000+08:00

WALAO，
今天我妈妈没有做工，
我一起身，
就叫我整理那个这个，
DENG，
刚刚睡醒罢了，
就叫我做那个做这个，
我和弟弟讨论过了，
我们打算在星期六才整理，
结果她就叫我现在整理，
现在还早拉，
就算现在整理，
到了新年也会胺脏的啦，
不知道她在想什么～

祝福与恭贺。。。29/1/08的心情日记

2008-01-30T01:53:00.000+08:00

今天没有什么事情发生，
下午只是去找俊薪拿衣服，
然后又玩电脑和看戏，
今天一起床，
我的颈超级痛，
动一动罢了，
就会感到很痛，
下午收到嘉敏的电话，
她关心我是否过关了吗，
我收到了婆婆的符，
加上很多人的祝福，
终算过关了，
不辜负他们对我的期望，
到了晚上，
在MAPLE认识了一位新朋友，
他是我的MAPLE好友的朋友，
名字是FEI，
都说了，
我跟MAPLE的朋友比较多话说，
不想在现实生活，
没有方向感，没有人缘，
咳～

终结－原来是灰色的一面，第一个想告诉的是，你。。。 28/1/08的心情日记

2008-01-29T00:57:00.000+08:00

啊～～～
终于都轻松下来了，
终于能放下心头石了，
心情，情绪恢复了很多，
可是我很不爽，
虽然我是过关了，
不辜负你们对我的期望，
我做到了，
可是我承认我做到不好，
ON THE ROAD的考试，
我几乎就要FAIL了的，
就是因为我已经包了，
所以不用将怕，
可是我一路驾车，
我就一路给考官骂，
他骂我为什么驾到那么慢！
还有我是最后一个考试的人，
真的气死人了！
想想一下，
我在练习多一点，
我就会驾了的，
还有谢谢你们。。。

今天那个死应弘啊，
既然幸灾乐祸，
之前问他上山会不会，
他就很吹水的回答，
很简单罢了吗，
不用将怕的，
可是今天看他驾车后才发现原来他不是很会！
每天都这样的，
不过做人要懂得谦虚，
不然怎么做大事，
我一定是给陈梅月老师感染的，
哈哈！
还有当考ON THE ROAD时，
我已经很紧张了的拉，
就不要在那边说三说四，
也不要看蓑我，
我一定能做到的，
我要证明给你们看，
我是可以的！！！

回到家后，
我第一个想告诉这个喜事给你知道，
很突然勒！
我不知道，我就是想告诉你，
然后再从你身上再叫你请我吃东西，
哈哈，
我们已有两个礼拜没有联络了，
最后我都还是没有打电话给你。。。

婆婆的符。。。27/1/08的心情日记

2008-01-28T01:27:00.001+08:00

明天就是揭晓黑白面的日子了，
很紧张，
所以我就驾看公公的车一下，
突然婆婆给了我符，
她说希望我能过关，
我心了酸了起来，
希望我能过关，
同时我很感动，
还以为她没有什么关心我的，
她每次都站在我弟弟那边，
我考SPM她都没有给过我，
今天她给了我已伴她多年的符，
这个符是保佑她平安的，
既然给了我，
她给了我信心，
所以我一定要做到最好，
希望不会辜负老人家的一番心意，
谢谢你，婆婆～～

犹豫不定的答案。。。26/1/08的心情日记

2008-01-27T01:38:00.000+08:00

昨天接到运嘉的电话，
他说今天CROWN PRINCESS要很多人，
所以叫迈我去，
可是我拜六和礼拜都有做工，
所以推了他，
其实我不想做的，
因为他说要做到半夜一点，
然后又想到我回家很难，
交通又没有，
如果叫我爸爸出来载我，
他一定不肯，
除非我自己回来啦，
我也不想烦到他，
所以我都不想做，
可是运嘉说他爸爸可以载，
所以才想做。。。
到最后，我老板娘叫我今天不用去做，
然后就打算去运嘉那边做，
可是又要我自己一个人去，
然后就推掉他的诚意了，
想着想着，
三月快到了，
我我我。。。
没有钱，
又不想向爸爸拿钱，
因为他要买车，
所以我还在犹豫着。。。

后天就是我考车的日子了，
很紧张，
不过我明天我再练习的，
加油儿～
黑白面揭晓倒数两天～～～

换了新发型。。。25/1/08的心情日记

2008-01-26T02:33:00.000+08:00

今天打算十一点就去剪头发的，
可是我懒猪，
睡到十二点才起床，
然后我就很懒惰，
拖到四五点才去，
可是下起雨来，
所以我七点才去～
我不知要剪怎样的，
所以叫他帮我想咯，
结果他帮我剪了男装水母头，
要搽东西才好看，
如果头发没有搽的话，
就会很好笑，
不过我很满意～
但是很贵－RM２２。。。
＠。＠
不过我剪是为了新年，
所以就霍出去，哈哈。。。
打算要染头发的，
可是想到我三月要去国民服务了，
所以就不要染，
但是回来后，
要从新留过，
真的很讨厌！！！

过于自信，伤痛就越大。。。24/1/08的心情日记

2008-01-25T12:14:00.000+08:00

今天我学玩了驾车课程，
可是今天我只学了一个小时，
我很不甘心，
上山还有点怕，
因为今天我放不掉HANDBRAKE，
害到整辆车往后退，
还有我每次都超过黄线，
希望考车当天不要超过，
一定要成功！
我向来对自己很有信心的，
可是对自己过与自信，
如果失败了，
伤害就越大，
可是没有了自信，
做起事来就很没尽～
不过我相信我一定行的！
贤洲，你一定能的！
加油儿～

Maple世界，没烦恼。。。23/1/08的心情日记

2008-01-24T01:28:00.000+08:00

今天我很无聊，
运嘉叫我做工，
可是我不要，
算来算去，
很不划算，
因为，从这里去LRT很麻烦，
不然就搭TAXI去，
很吃钱，
所以我就没理他咯～

今天MAPLE出新的TOWN，
HERB TOWN 和 MU LUNG TOWN，
为什么我那么喜欢玩MAPLE，
因为当我在玩时，
我什么烦恼都没有，
我什么都不会想，
我又认识了一位好朋友－CLYDEZ，
他人好好，
我跟他很多话谈，
可是我玩的太多了今天，
每天都玩超过１０小时，
很恐怖！！！

我又开始担心考车了，
因为明天我又得去学，
很怕会。。。

心中的紧张。。。 22/1/08的心情日记

2008-01-22T21:03:00.000+08:00

今天又是闷闷的度过，
下午应弘到我家帮我弄dota，
可是都还是不能玩，
咳~
然后我就玩电脑到七点，
接着就睡觉，
过后看到伟宾PASS了考车，
首先恭喜他先，
然后就替自己紧张，
怕我会fails,
做自己，首先要对自己有信心，
然后才可以取得胜利，
只要我再练习多一两次，
我就会有信心的，
要有信心。。。

最后的希望，最后的绝望。。。21/1/08的心情日记

2008-01-21T22:55:00.000+08:00

今天很闷，
我没有做工，
整天呆在家里吃喝玩乐睡觉，
很像猪猪了？
我只好打算打扫房间，
突然间想起，
为什么我那么笨？
我应该一月开课的，
因为我三月有国民服务，
我原本都不想去的，
可是我一直拖延到现在，
后悔也来不及了，
最讨厌你的，国民服务！！！

生日快乐，啊公。。。20/1/08的心情日记

2008-01-21T02:22:00.000+08:00

My Big Big Big Family

Ah Gong's Birthday Cake

今天是我公公的寿日，
我们约好七点见，
可是我们就偏偏七点准时去，
XD
到了那里，看看环境，
我觉得还好，
一年没见面了，
样子变了很多，
还好他们今天没有说我的很多，
我只是问他们关于ENGINEERING的东西，
然后就开始进食，
那边的食物大部分都不好吃，
尤其是我最喜欢吃的冬菇，
很没有味道，
ZZZ
听说一张桌子需要RM５００，
未勉太贵了吧？
在说蛋糕不好吃。
然后我们就拍全家照，
和唱歌。。。

对不起，嘉敏，
今天电话没钱了，
在加上电话故障，
所以我无法打电话给你，
不过在我出去之前，

终算能打给你了。。。

Ah Gong cutting cake,
did he look young?

Me n My Family

大姑's Family

二姨's Family

小姨's Family

原来。。。19/1/08的心情日记

2008-01-20T02:14:00.000+08:00

今天我八点就得爬床起身准备，
因为今天要学车，
苦问人那个的这个的，
今天终于解开我的问题了，
我终算会上山了，
今天我也学会了PARKING，
得记得很多步骤，
我很快就忘记了，
今天很开心，
因为我终于懂了。。。
希望我可以成功

Haha,
Today restourant come a family(indian mix chinese),
wtf,
so lousy,
summore keep ask me question,
n the Ah Fa r so stupid
keep going out,
left me 1 ppl do all the thing,
they speaking english,
Omg,
So old edi lk my Ah Ma,
also can speak fluently,
DENG,
I HAV TO WORK HARD,
after work,
i help my boss buy newspaper,
Basikal langgar me,
WTF
make me so...
Pls watch properly n make sure no car or ppl coming out,
when u wanna turn left or right,
No NEXT time!!!

Tmr was my grandfather Birthday,
sign,
nid to meet all my cousin edi,
my pimple keep coming out,
no faces c them,
i hate they keep talking noncense,
So BA GUA,
keep say bad on me,
but i lk them when CNY,
coz can get $$$,
haha...
Hope i wil b well tmr...

非要二选一吗？不能有完美的结局吗？ 18/1/08的心情日记

2008-01-19T00:14:00.000+08:00

今天我终于接到嘉敏的电话了，
前两天，那时我在看戏，
所以她关掉电话了，
昨天我也错过了她的通话，
因为那时我们在PAVILION找陈翎，
所以在走动时，
就察觉不到震动，
所以我错过了。。。
今天终算可以接到了，
她跟我说她那里有人撞邪～
所以这两天她们都很怕，
她说因为她的住舍的隔壁是坟墓，
所以容易惹到它们，
她说她们女生用了卫生棉后，
一定要洗干净了才可以丢，
才不会惹到，
可能吧，
所以有点担心她～
当我跟xxx时，
我也会想到她的，
难道我不能左右拥抱，
一定要左右为难吗？

晚上我班上有GATHERING，
所以我跟他们去了，
原本我是不想去的，
可是给俊薪逼的，
所以我去了，
哎呀，都还是那样的很闲，
不过还好啦，
就是谈费话咯，
可是为什么志强不相信我跟嘉敏已经开始的呢？
我还在想着～
还有志强真的是含着金钥匙出生的，
才刚毕业了，
就有跑车可以坐了，
我跟他真的无法比下去了？
难道我真的要忍输了吗？
如果我忍输了，
就代表我放弃了目标，
为了打败他们的目标，
为什么我那么喜欢跟他们比较？
为什么？？？
我尝试不要跟他们比，
可是如果不跟他们比，
我就没有了推动力，
我就会没力气了～
我可以休息吗？？？
你们可以休息，
为什么我不能？？？
我不管，
这次我要休息！！！
很烦！！！

在回家的路途中，
我乘坐权宁的车回去，
韵柔一直在我耳边劝我，
叫我不要放弃嘉敏，
叫我要好好珍惜她，
这我也懂呀，
可是我不知道我那时的嘴巴说不出口，
我不能给她一个肯定的答案，
可能她比较有经验吧～
我就是不知如何回答。。。

没脸见镜子。。。17/1/08的心情日记

2008-01-18T02:39:00.001+08:00

啊～
脸上又长很多豆豆了，
好烦哦～
越来越多了，
好了又生，生了再生，
平时我都没有带眼镜看镜子的，
因为我近视，
所以看得很模糊，
所以我每次在家里梳头，洗脸都没有照镜子，
难道我真的很压力？还是不够睡？
我还是太迟睡？？？
我不懂了！
今天我晚电脑到半夜，
给我妈妈咒我生多点！
WLAN，
所以我真的没有勇气照镜子，
与及跟他们拍照，
我真的越来越样蓑了。。。

今天我又跟我班的同学去买衣服～
买完了～
可是最令我生气的一天！

第一点，12pm我们约好见面，
可是他们却让我等了半个小时才到！
我说了我不会迟到的，
今天我想早到那边！
死运嘉就让我等了半个小时～
！！！
害我颈项又敏感！
流太多的汗了！
如果他们来了，说是因为吃东西的话，
我可以原谅他们！
可是他们却为了打CC，
所以才迟到！
死人头他是特地的，
所以我要运嘉请我吃东西，
一定要！我不理！
在你请我吃之前，你先进入BLACK LIST吧。。。

第二点，我们才随便走走就去了金河！
到了金河，为了配合你们，
我选择了在MCDONALD等你们，
害我浪费了RM１０，
而且在那里呆了两个小时！
当开始走时，你们才随便走，
就要去找CHIN LING，
WTF。。。

第三点，那个FCKER服务员，
明明我昨天来的时候，
她说可以试衣服的，
结果今天我到时，
他就说不能试！
WTF，
我不能试，我怎知道能穿没有，
买回去了，
才发现很紧！
将小件！
还我给妈妈臭骂一顿！

第四点，我妈妈有开始骂人了！
又说这个不美那个不美！
都不懂她人怎么想！
可能太OUTDATE了。。。

买完了后我们去PAVILION找CHERN HENG 和陈翎，
过后我们在那里欣赏了华乐，
好好听哦～
接着我们去BRJ吃东西，
回家的时候，原本想要搭巴士的，
结果看到巴士没有人，很恐怖，
所以改去搭得士了，
今天真的花很多钱！

A day with xxx。。。16/1/08的心情日记

2008-01-17T00:49:00.000+08:00

还以为今天可以跟xxx出去，
怎知道xxx带了xxx的姐姐和堂哥来，
本来可以像往来那样，
跟xxx谈天方面，
都不必顾虑那么多，
现在多了xxx的姐姐，
反而觉得怪怪的，
哎哟～
xxx还是没变，
还是那样的幼稚，
对待我方面也不要理xxx的姐姐，
所以xxx还是像以前那样咯，
可是动作就是幼稚了一点～
＞。＜
我们越了十点见面，
为了xxx，
我还特地早到呢！
怎知道他迟到，
害我等xxx十分钟，
本是大少爷呢！
要我等xxx，不过他愿意接受惩罚，
就是请我吃东西，
哈哈～
接着我们去看The Game Plans,
好好笑哦～还有很感动，
我都差点哭了～
接着我们就去逛街咯，
他们都有收获，
就只有我一个没有买东西，
因为想到明天都有跟别人来买，
所以我先看看价钱先，
明天才跟他们来买。。。

然后我们就到SG WANG，
在那边吃了东西过后，
就开始逛街咯，
老实说，我没有看中衣服，
海～
接着我们又回到TIME SQUARE，
路途中下起大雨，
我们只好跑着过去，
为了赶第二场戏，
哎！！
又是跟xxx说再见了，
不知几时还可以出来？

爱情的诱惑力，GoodBye Kiss。。。15/1/08的心情日记

2008-01-16T01:52:00.000+08:00

Kiss GoodBye~

baby不要再哭泣
这一幕多么熟悉
紧握着你的手彼此都舍不得分离
每一次想开口但不如保持安静
给我一分钟专心
好好欣赏你的美
幸福搭配悲伤
痛是在我心交叉
挫折的眼泪不能测试爱的重量
付出的爱收不回
还欠你的我不能给
别把我心也带走
去跟随
每一次和你分开
深深的被你打败
每一次放弃你的温柔
痛苦难以释怀
每一次kiss you goodbye
爱情的滋味此刻我终于最明白

昨天看我弟弟玩MAPLE到四点，
我才去睡，
所以今天早上很迟才起床，
啊～
整身都酸痛，
到了晚上，
xxx打电话给我，
跟我谈了明天要出街的事，
最可恶的是，
xxx现在才跟我讲xxx的姐姐和堂哥有去，
我早知道叫运嘉和应弘跟我们，
不过xxx最后既然叫我给xxxGoodBye KISS!!!
Wlan,
突然间叫我给xxx！
xxx到底心里在想什么？？？
我摸不到xxx的心～

恋爱十诫

2008-01-16T01:25:00.000+08:00

第一诫：不要把自己当作神，也不要把对方当作神。

恋爱，可说是人一生中最甜美的时刻。深度心理学认为，这是心灵创伤得医治最好的时机；但若没处理好，它也可能变成伤上加伤最危险的时刻。

深度心理学也指出，人在恋爱时心理上退化成三岁之前的状态；爱情关系其实在重复人生命中前三年的几个心理发展阶段，过去没学好的心理功课，现在要在成人爱情关系中重新学习。

恋人之间的关系像极了母亲与初生婴孩间的关系。若想知道什么人和什么人相爱，只要看他们的眼睛就行。那两人眼中含情脉脉，脸上带著醉心的笑容，乐不思蜀，彼此痴痴凝视，可以到废寝忘食的地步。母亲与初生婴孩间的凝视也是如此。

相爱的人在一起双方都非常快乐，但分离时双方都好像是失了魂，落了魄一般，坐立不安，忧愁痛苦。母亲与婴孩分开时也是这样，双方都会产生分离焦虑。恋人重逢之时双方心中的喜乐难以言喻，好像失而复得，重新寻回生命中之最爱；母亲与初生婴孩别后重聚时也是如此。

爱情，能唤醒每人个性中最美好的一面，给人带来一种“脱胎换骨”的感觉，使忧郁的变快乐，害羞的变活泼。

爱情之所以有这样神奇的魔力，是因为人心深处两个最重要的需求，可以同时在爱情中得到满足。人生命中两个最基本的心理需求，一个是在所爱的人心中居首位(“The need to be special, to be number one”)：每个人都期盼能在所爱的人心中占有最重要的地位。如果一个人在成长时不被珍爱，或因着小弟的出生被横刀夺爱，使他（她）再也得不到父母特别的注意力时，他（她）心底深处可能就一直期盼将来有一个人能把他（她）当作心上人来爱他（她），给他（她）完全的，不分心的注意力。

在成长的过程中每一个人都需要至少有一段时间可以被父母视为眼中的瞳仁—也就是能处在所爱之人心中最重要的地位。没有办法这样的时候，心中或多或少会受了一些伤，但在恋爱时，这些过去未得满足的需求，都可以得到一些医治（至少是暂时的医治）。

另一个最基本的心理需求，是被人无条件接纳的需要（The need to be unconditionally accepted）: 不管功课如何，成就高低，长得好不好看，是否可爱，都能被接纳，被爱的需要。这样的需求在爱情中似乎很容易被满足。唯有在恋爱时，当一方五音不全，歌唱得荒腔走板时，他(她)的爱人能听得津津有味。在这样的爱中，许多过去所受的心灵创伤都能得医治。可惜的是，这两个爱情最迷人之处，正好就是日后造成亲密关系最大困难的地方。唯有神才能彻底满足人心这两大需求，爱情却能带来一个幻觉，让人以为爱人就是那位可以满足所有需要的神。把爱人当神，我们必然会失望。

圣经中诗篇16篇第4节说: “以别神代替耶和华的，他们的愁苦必加增。”笔者认为这有两层意义：

把自己当作神就是：要求对方与自己有同样的思想、感觉，不允许对方有不同的意见与看法。对方偏好，做法，个性，习惯与自己不同，就生气，硬逼对方改变，不许对方做自己不爱做的事，交自己不喜欢的朋友等等。同时强求对方成为你梦中完美无缺的父母，能在你未开口之前，就知你所需要的是什么，而自动满足这些需求。若是对方做不到，你就像婴儿学会用尖叫哭闹来逼母亲就范一样，也用愤怒、斥责来处罚对方，逼对方把你所想要的给你，造成亲密关系中最常发生的冲突。

把对方当作神。就是期望对方永远把你放在最优先，把你当作他/她的最爱、首要，期待对方完全满足你被接纳、被重视的心理需求。

若是如此，在恋爱中，你会变得占有性太强，要求对方把全部注意力完全放在你身上，不允许对方有自己的空间与喜好。这样会让爱情关系产生很大的问题。因为唯有神才能做到对你完全无条件的接纳、永远将你视为最爱。

“恋爱，是一个残缺的人找到另一半，于是变成一个完整的人”——这是一种错误观念！爱情的数学符号不是加号：因1/2加1/2并不等于1。爱情的数学符号是乘号：1/2×1/2=1/4。

意思就是说，假如两人都要求对方来成全自己，而却没有发展出本身的价值、信心与看法。这会让二人的世界变成越来越小，甚至有窒息的感觉。正确的爱情观念是：每人都要努力把自己的1/2变成1，然后得出1×1=1的成果。

人越成熟，所能给的爱就会越多。恋爱并不是把自己的需要全部依赖在别人身上，每一个人都需要学习为自己的快乐负责。

英文有两句非常传神的话，把恋爱的本质分为两种不同的境界。

“I need you; therefore, I love you. ” (我需要你，所以我才爱你) ，这是自私的恋爱。哪天，当你不能满足我的需要，我就不爱你了。我会去寻找另一位可以满足我需要的人。

成熟的爱应该是：I love you, therefore, I need you. （我爱你，因我需要一个流露爱的管道。）这才是恋爱最健康的指标。

因此，你必须要努力去学习先成为一个快乐的单身者，将来在婚姻中，你才会快乐。

两个孤单、不快乐的单身在一起，像是两个饥饿的婴孩，拼命要别人给你东西，别人不给你，你就会去处罚对方。

在成熟的爱情里，必须在极力地完善自己以后，才能去爱别人，才能真正懂得如何去接纳别人的爱。这是一个同步进行的过程，一方面不断地学习自我成长，一方面在爱情关系中，帮助彼此成长。

第二诫：避免让爱情关系进行得太快（Do not get too much too soon）

不要一开始就如胶似漆，二十四小时都腻在一起，也不要把心中的想法全部都告诉对方。这是很危险的事情。心灵亲密的程度应该与交往的阶段成正比。 “Risk defines rewards”太快交心会减少你酬赏对方的能力，降低你的吸引力。笔者常常告诉学生：一个人能给别人最好的礼物，就是你内心深处真正的想法与感受。但是你不要把这珍贵的“人参果”随便就丢给猪八戒吃。这些珍贵的心灵礼物只能给那些通得过你安全性测验，渐渐赢得你信任的人。

现代年轻人最流行的，是同居（或试婚）。下面是对同居的一些研究：

同居者比婚后才有性关系的人性关系满足程度较低。

同居者婚外情机率较高。

同居者离婚率较高。

同居者婚姻暴力两倍于婚后才有性行为的人。

同居者忧虑与焦虑症比例较高。

为什么同居者有这么多的问题？因为人在恋爱中，必须按部就班的发展以下情感依附的过程：

1、两人彼此的相知。要了解对方真正是谁，才能开始有真正的爱情关系。

2、开始对对方产生信任感（trust）。

3、互相支持的健康的人，必须懂得独立（independent），也必须懂得依靠（dependent），在这二者之间，可以有弹性的调整。

4、彼此的委身。委身的承诺就是要确定，这是两人要同走的路，两人愿意一辈子生活在一起。

5、性关系。假如先有性关系，就会把前面重要的基础都毁坏了。这就是为什么同居者在婚后产生这么多的问题。

第三诫：要避免在恋爱初期，太快把自己过去的软弱、隐私、心中的不安，全部告诉对方。

在恋爱初期，若其中一人以诚实为理由，把过去最差劲的事情、心中的不安，全部倾泄到对方的身上，却不管对方是不是愿意听，有没有做好心理准备。从表面上看来，像是一种诚实的表现，因为在爱人面前不应该有隐瞒，但实际上，这是一种自私的表现。情绪上太依赖对方，强求爱人带给你快乐，为你的情绪与安全感负责，这样长久下来，不但会失去对方的尊重，有时也会导致另外一方受不了而离开。

过去痛苦的事情，在什么时候可以告诉对方，要有智慧。讲得太早，对方被你吓走。太晚，对方会觉得被欺骗。这没有一定的规则。因每人情形不一样，承受的程度也不一样。当碰到比较特殊的情况，最好去请教辅导。通常两人一起接受婚前辅导时，会是一个很好的时机，可以在安全的环境下，把这些事情全部沟通出来。爱需要学习，也需要有智慧。

是否对自己的伴侣可以有一个秘密，隐藏一辈子？

在夫妻关系中，可有某种的神秘性在里头。夫妻关系像两个圆圈，中间有很多的交集。交集可大可小，随着时间的迁移而变异。当二人受到的压力大时，交集的地方比较多。当压力比较小时，二人可以往外去探索。每人可以有若干百分比是单属于自己的秘密。但随着彼此信任感的加强，彼此可以更加透明，只是不能勉强。所以，最理想的方式，是建立良好爱的关系。而透明只是这个关系的结果。

第四诫：要了解爱情心理动力

爱情越加勉强，爱火越难被点燃。

点燃爱火需要有两个重要的要素：要有爱情的燃料与氧气。

1、爱情的燃料：对自己保持有信心，让自己变成一个有意思、有吸引力的人。

2、爱情的氧气：两人需要有空间

爱情最怕的是开始的时候，就老是黏在一起。但过了一段时间，有一人变成“空间追求者”，另一方则是“亲密关系追逐者”。当一方有意疏远的时候，追逐者会觉得焦虑，会觉得心理上得到的爱不够，要去吸引空间寻求者的注意力。这是很自然的现象。有时一方追逐得太厉害，空间寻求者会把关系结束。

要保持成功的爱情，就要对自己保持信心，懂得自处、有自己的兴趣、对对方也有体贴与尊重。如对方不情愿，不会为了安全感的需要，而一味强求对方满足我。

第五诫：交往之后，避免自我中心，保持尊重，不要勉强对方做不愿意做的事。

两人难免有差异，但要对对方保持尊重、宽容、恩慈的态度。 Do not block your lover’s goals, try your best to meet his/her needs, look for win-win solution. 除非与真理有关，尽量不要去妨碍对方做他爱做的事。要努力沟通与解决冲突的技巧, 寻求双赢的做法，去帮对方满足他的需求。

第六诫：不要因为二人已交往一阵子，就松懈下来，言行随便。

要不断保持互相尊重的态度，不要像许多情侣一样，在定情之后，就开始不检点自己说话的态度和服装仪容。

第七诫：择偶时，品格（忠诚、仁慈、善良）比外表更重要。
年轻人很容易被对方的外在条件所吸引，但其实品格、忠诚、仁慈、善良，比外表、赚多少钱、学位来得重要。婚姻能否幸福，内在才是关键。

基于人性的软弱，第一眼往往看的是外表。当然，外表至少要在你眼中能过得去。但其实，在定情、交往一段时间以后，外表就变得不这么重要了。将来是不是能长长久久，主要在于对方的个性是怎么样。

第八诫：不要只专注在对方对自己如何，也要观察对方的人际关系。
在交往时，要持续睁大双眼，不要被爱情冲昏了头。要去拜访对方的家人，看他与父母亲如何相处、跟家人如何相处？人际关系如何？对动物的态度如何？一个人有没有健康的人际关系，跟将来的幸福是绝对相关的。若单单对你好，是非常不实际和危险的。

当一个人自我价值，自尊心比较弱的时候，只要别人对你好，就很容易陷下去，根本没机会去看清楚对方到底是谁。所以要先寻求自我价值。
之前几期我们已经看完了恋爱世界的前八诫，今天让我们一起来看最后两诫吧！

第九诫：当二人论及婚嫁以后，要找辅导做婚前准备。

做心理测验，会让彼此了解原生家庭的背景，彼此交往的方式。在婚前辅导中，彼此学习沟通，看到彼此的差异。

例如，要不要有小孩？若要，什么时候有？家事如何分配？双方对金钱的看法如何？对双方父母的态度如何？要不要寄钱回家？寄多少？假如这些在婚前有一些共识的话，婚后可减少很多问题。

婚姻等于二人各带一幅自己的蓝图，去盖一栋婚姻的房子，这是一件很困难的事。这就是为什么婚前的准备是这么重要了！

第十诫：要了解某些人会有“婚前焦虑症”的反应。

在潜意识里，明明很爱对方，但对对方还是有一些疑虑。很多人在婚前会想去探索一下是否可有别的选择。例如，忽然告诉对方说：“我们快要结婚了，但我总是觉得希望能有机会先跟别人交往一下，然后才决定是不是心甘情愿地跟你结婚。”

这是很常见的现象。那时另一方会恐慌。但请不要立刻变成追逐者，拼命去追对方。其实这是一个信心的考验。请记得，爱情需要有空间，当自己觉得很焦虑不安时，就去找辅导，努力专注在自己的成长上。请记得，健康的自信与人格之成熟是吸引力的来源。当对方经过一段探索的过程后，更会甘心情愿地跟你一辈子。好好思考一下才踏上红地毯，倒不是一件坏事。

结语：人不可能十诫都做得到，但你做得越多，将来吃的苦就越小。愿上帝祝福每一位爱的追寻者。

我是第三十三个棋子。。。 14/1/08的心情日记

2008-01-14T23:37:00.000+08:00

我这样说运嘉，
不知道他介意吗？
应该是不介意的吧？
刚刚跟他说了，
他好无感觉。。。
＝。＝
真的无药可救了。。。
现在我，只是多余的朋友，
想要找个知心朋友都很难，
还以为有了他，
就可以了，
可是我想错了。。。
FCKER 运嘉！
无段段给我提到GCS，
明知道我恨他的！
还要说到我跟他很好！
你今天又得罪我了！

今天原本跟应弘约了要去问工的，
后来想到都还是不要去了，
因为这个礼拜的开支很大，
再加上我婆婆反对，
所以我取消了～

后来晚上跟应弘，CHERN HENG，凯祥去YAMCHA～

（包容是阳光）

＂生气，是拿别人的错误惩罚自己。”
优雅的康德大概是不会有暴风骤雨的，
心情永远是天朗气清。
别人犯错了，
我们为此雷霆万钧，
那犯错的该是我们自己了。

“要真正憎恶别人的简单方法只有一个，即发挥对方的长处。”
憎恶对方，恨不得食肉寝皮敲骨吸髓，
结果只能使自己焦头烂额，心力尽瘁。
“憎恶”是另一种形式的“宽容”，
憎恶别人不是咬牙切齿饕餮对手，
而是吸取对方的长处化为自己强身壮体的钙质。

有了宽容之心，炎炎酷暑里就把它当作降温的空调吧。

　　宽容是一种美。深邃的天空容忍了雷电风暴一时的肆虐，才有风和日丽；辽阔的大海容纳了惊涛骇浪一时的猖獗，才有浩淼无垠；苍莽的森林忍耐了弱肉强食一时的规律，才有郁郁葱葱。泰山不辞杯土，方能成其高；江河不择细流，方能成其大。宽容是壁立千仞的泰山，是容纳百川的江河湖海。

　　与朋友交往，宽容是鲍叔牙多分给管仲的黄金。他不计较管仲的自私，也能理解管仲的贪生怕死，还向齐桓公推荐管仲做自己的上司。

　　与众人交往，宽容是光武帝焚烧投敌信札的火炬。刘秀大败王郎，攻入邯郸，检点前朝公文时，发现大量奉承王郎、侮骂刘秀甚至谋划诛杀刘秀的信件。可刘秀对此视而不见，不顾众臣反对，全部付之一炬。他不计前嫌，可化敌为友，壮大自己的力量，终成帝业。这把火，烧毁了嫌隙，也铸炼坚固的事业之基。

　　你要宽容别人的龃龉、排挤甚至诬陷。因为你知道，正是你的力量让对手恐慌。你更要知道，石缝里长出的草最能经受风雨。风凉话，正可以给你发热的头脑“冷敷”；给你穿的小鞋，或许能让你在舞台上跳出曼妙的 “芭蕾舞”；给你的打击，仿佛运动员手上的杠铃，只会增加你的爆发力。睚眦必报，只能说明你无法虚怀若谷；言语刻薄，是一把双刃剑，最终也割伤自己；以牙还牙，也只能说明你的“牙齿”很快要脱落了；血脉贲张，最容易引发“高血压病”。“一只脚踩扁了紫罗兰，它却把香味留在那脚跟上，这就是宽恕。”安德鲁• 马修斯在《宽容之心》中说了这样一句能够启人心智的话。

你没有做我好朋友的心。。。犹豫不定的开始，妈妈的使唤。。。不愉快的回忆，记忆的碎片。。。13/1/08的心情日记

2008-01-14T01:59:00.000+08:00

今天又给他们去了EDUCATION FAIR，
想说今天一定要搞好PHARMACY 和 A－LEVELS 的课程，
所以我又去确定一下，
搞了两天的努力，
家人既然全力反抗我的PHARMACY，
第一，很贵～
第二，怕我以后没有后路，
第三，只会听别人说很难，却不相信我能读～
第四，因为邻居的ENGINEERING很好，所以叫我读～
什么烂理由吗！
家人不是应该支持我的吗？？
人家家人都至少尊重人家的决定，
可是你们就不能让我开开心心读吗？？？
零时做好了准备，
却叫我不要读！
你们知道我的心是多么痛吗？
我现在就像没了翅膀的小鸟，
无法自由的飞翔。。。
我只好跟从他们的意识了，
我可以不要读PHARMACY的，
可是你们绝对不能阻止我读我喜欢的课程！！！

去了EDUCATION FAIR 后，
我们就随运嘉去CROWN PRINCESS问工，
我是无所谓的，
运嘉叫我陪他，
所以我就去咯～
明知道我的脚很痛却叫我走路去，
我无所谓，
最可恶的是既然是没有收获而得回去！
都跟他们说了，
我晚上有工作，
你们应该要体谅我，
不过我可以原谅你的，
可是你却没有向我道歉！
明知道我的脾气不好，
你就不会跟我道歉的吗？？？
这也代表说我在你心目中，
我根本就不算是你的好朋友！
难道要道歉真的很难说吗？
又不是说我爱你，
嘴巴真的很重吗？
道歉都懒惰。。。
你已进我的GREY list

今天晚上又遇到我最禁忌的东西，
为什么你们对我那么的差？
难道我在你们任何一个人的心中，
真的那么不想留恋吗？？？
我弟弟有什么比我更好！
今天又遇到我最不想遇到的亲戚＝我弟弟的乾妈，
一来了以后就问我弟弟买了什么东西，
买了一些贵的衣服吧了，
就说很美，
而我LEH？
就说我那个不美，这个不美，
过后又特地在我面前塞了RM１００给我弟弟，
叫他买多点，
哇涩，做人需要做到我面前吗？
MAHAI，CIBAI，SOHAI。。。。。。。。
要让我眼红是吗？
过了这个话题后，
就说到我弟弟的学业，

她就问我弟弟：＂TONY，你在学校读些什么？＂

我弟弟就臭屁的回答，：＂是有ADD MATH 的班，在学校是很难才进到的！＂
然后我爸爸就插嘴，：＂OH，ADD MATH很难的勒！你进到真的很厉害了！＂
WALAO，
难道你们就不懂我的ADD MATH 是全校第二高的吗？
进到又怎样？
你考到像我这样才算你好厉害！
你都不知道我的实力有多厉害！
你都不知道我付出了这么多代价，
换来的就是为了要给你们看！
就是要让你们承认我！！
证明我不是废人！
最离谱的是你们既然不知道我有这样的成就！
就只会讲，你有能力读吗？
你读得到吗？
等SPM出来你们就会知道我的实力！
不不会给你们看扁的！

摸不清的开始。。。 12/1/08的心情日记

2008-01-13T02:35:00.000+08:00

今天跟了死党去了EDUCATION FAIR，
我是因为应弘和他妈妈有去，
所以我才想要去，
一心只要读ACTURAL SCIENCE，
却不知道它的难度，
听了他们讲解，
我才了解，
原来我并不认识它们，
还以为数学应该难不倒我吧～
我心一只抱着不死之神，
却不知道它要读很多年，
想了一下，
我又不想读了。。。

当时他们都问我要读什么，
我只好在短短的做了决定，
所以只好选PHARMACY，
因为本身的我，喜欢读化学，
所以化学当然要是我的首选～
咳～
现在却要烦恼我该读哪一间，
我妈妈说SUNWAY太远，
所以不要我读那里，
那就是说TAYLOR 和 SUNWAY 退出了，
说到UTAR 他们就赞成，
可是都要搬到亿宝，
就叫我住宿舍，
哇～　这不是更远吗？
然后又说到叫我不要读PHARMACY，
又叫我读ENGINEERING，
可是我一点兴趣都没有！！！
算了。
明天再跟她说～

当然要坚持～
不要轻易放弃自己的理想～
加油儿。。。

我听见天使唱歌...

2008-01-12T23:40:00.000+08:00

孤独的天使啊，你因何哭泣？
　　是遗落了旧日的同伴，还是迷失了回去的方向？
　　天穹苍茫，关山遥迢，怎记取梦里归程？
　　归来吧，往事已不可寻，暮色模糊了回忆
　　
　　孤独的天使啊，你为何不留恋人间？
　　匆匆来去，尘缘如花，瞬间开落
　　也许，我们的相遇，是个美丽的错
　　一世之后，是否还能和你重聚？

永远的爱？？？破碎的记忆。。。 11/1/08的心情日记

2008-01-11T17:14:00.000+08:00

Forever LOVE~

爱你，
不是因为你的美而已，
我越来越爱你，
每个眼神触动我的心，
因为你让我看见FOREVER，
才了解自己，
未来这些日子，
要好好珍惜，
爱我，
有些痛苦，有些不公平，
如果真的爱我，
不是理说当然的决定，
感到你的呼吸在我耳边，
像微风升起，
温柔的安抚，
我的不安宁，
所以我要每天研究你的笑容，
啊～
多么自然，
FOREVER LOVE～
FOREVER LOVE～
我只想用我这一辈子去爱你，
从经以后，
你会是所有，
幸福的理由。。。

今天它让我想起了从前，
它让我从破碎的记忆里，
寻找从前的我们，
它是唯一能让我感动的，
到现在我能然不能忘记，
他曾唱过这首歌给我。。。

还记得当时我想在这一天渴望时间被上锁，
让这一天过慢一点，
永远都在日落，
一天　就让我们在另一边，
每一滴雨水的掉落，
全代表我对你的承诺，
望着橘色黎明的窗前，
希望你也看到爱的光线，
我试着去忘了他，
可是我们已有五年的感情，
都是这首歌让我回忆起，
我可以不要把破碎的记忆填贴回去，
让这些记忆永远散落在我脑海，
让它成为一个不完整的记忆。。。

不应该的表情。。。 10/1/08的心情日记

2008-01-10T23:05:00.000+08:00

今天爸爸给了我三百块，
再加上我日夜辛苦赚来的钱，
准备要到Time square和Sg wang 一杀清光，
我买得不够去年买得那么的爽，
因为今天是公共假期，
所以购物广场一定很多人，
所以我们在金河只走了少少，
试也没试，我们就走了，
不过今天还有收获啦，
一到家里他们就往我书包，
找出我今天到底买了多少，
往年我买的衣服都很贵，
可是这次不同了，
我都尽量买便宜的，
我弟弟看了过后，
我怕他心里会妒嫉，
因为他都没有买很贵的衣服，
在家里，只要我向妈妈要多少钱，
她都尽量给我的，
所以我弟弟就无法想我那样，
今天我却买了这么多回来，
相信他一定很羡慕，
不过我妈妈尽量不要让他不开心，
所以尽量的去补充他的需求，
可能下个礼拜要跟我弟弟去金河了。。。

今天很感谢你们肯陪我出来买东西，
尤其是没有收获的运嘉，
他今天只是陪我们走走吧了，
我真的感到不好意识，
在这里感到报歉，
下次我有＄＄＄了，
再请你吃东西，
但是我想他一定有另有的的。。。

今天我有一点不爽应弘，
我讨厌玩游戏的他，
可能他太专注于电玩，
所以做其他事情都不经过大脑就说出口，
这是好事来的，
可是他应该、考滤其他人的感受，
今天他一直骂运嘉那个笨蛋，这个笨蛋，
我不是紧张运嘉，而才那么说的，
身为朋友的他，当然也是个旁观者，
我也看不下去，
玩得差一点又怎样，
不必骂他笨的吗。
过后我看到运嘉很无奈，
问他有没有事，
可是他硬回答说没事，
可能也是有其他事情吧，
我不是你，所以我不知道你在想什么，
至于应弘我已习惯了，
所以希望你不要在意，
我只是担心运嘉心灵受＂撞伤＂。。。

今天我也把运嘉为哥哥，
因为他今天很HAMSAP，
然后我就帮他取贤（咸）嘉，而我就是贤洲，
哈哈。。。
好好笑哦～

心，很复杂的一天。。。 9/1/08的心情日记

2008-01-09T21:17:00.001+08:00

今天我看了许多朋友的BLOG，
才知道大家都有写BLOG的习惯，
看了这么多人的BLOG，
知道了大多数的人都面对爱情的问题，
其中看到了祥杰的BLOG，
示爱方式也很有心思，很特别，

1 x 0 = 0 true statement
2 x 0 = 0 true statement
3 x 0 = 0 true statement
4 x 0 = 0 true statement
5 x 0 = 13 x 4 x 15 x 2 wrong statement
（我／陈翎＝love)

1)a 2)e 3)i 4)o 5)u 6)c 7)d 8)f 9)s 10)h 11)n
12)m 13)l 14)g 15)v 16)x 17)y 18)j 19)r 20)t

相信她看到了能感动吧，
能了解男方的用心和苦心，
不知道陈翎有没有看到，
可是据我所知，她对他是没有爱的感觉，
如果让祥杰知道，
他一定会很伤心的，
我只能爱莫能助。。。

为什么大家都在BLOG里写我爱那个，我爱这个，
为什么我的就不同的呢？
还是我已习惯了，
从前的痛苦及悲伤已记载在我脑海里，
所以面对同样的事情，都没有什么感觉？
还是我对她真的没有感觉了？
我无法否认，
因为我是曾经喜欢她的，
还是我被他冲昏了头脑，
对其它事情都没有感觉了？
我以前是很喜欢你的，
可是心里想着他，
我就会把一切事情化无所有，
难道这就已经显灵爱情的伟大了吗？
但我知道我不能辜负你对我的用心。。。

我看了韵柔的BLOG，

＂yesterday
tat baka joe
got then say got la
don wan give say don wan give la
don lie ma
ming ming got nut said don hav
so i block him til now

i hate been betray
since he is the 1 of 4 person i like the most in sch
i though i can belive him
yuan lai
i was wrong＂

原来我骗了她，
可是我是不想的，
我不知道我的骗局，
会造成你我之间的隔离，
现在我只能对我的一举一动感到歉意，
希望你能谅解。。。

友谊永恒～

原来。。。

2008-01-09T21:09:00.000+08:00

原来我是多么在乎你，
原来我太紧张你，
原来你也是我心中的另一半。。。

今天，接了嘉敏的电话，
耳里听着熟悉的声音，
原来我现在才发现她的魔力是那么的强大，
听到了她的声音，
心里平静得多了，
她的声音就像万宝丹那样，
已把我的不安给医治好，
接着，接着地，我，睡着了。。。

很吊的一天，幸福的开引号， 8/1/08的心情日记

2008-01-08T22:23:00.000+08:00

今天我又玩回MAPLE了，
不知道我已告诉你们该时候退出的，
可是自己又不懂为什么跑去玩，
太闷了，
大家都跑去做工了，
只剩下我一个人，
整天呆在家里，
吃了又睡，吃了又玩，
整天都做回同样的东西，
应弘也找到工了，
又是剩下我一个，
我，是不是该去找份工吗？

今天我接收到嘉敏的电话，
她说她只可以在星期日才可以拿电话，
所以我们已说好要谈天的星期五，
被逼取消了，
咳～
我们也说好了年初日要出去走走，
她只回来四天吧了，
我当然要好好把握时间吧～

今天无段段又给人中骂，
又骂人为什么要玩电脑，
人家在家里一定很闷的吗！
当然要找东西来解闷的，
心情好好地，
又给人破坏了！
T.T

好朋友，普通朋友还是有感觉的人？？？ 7/1/08的心情日记

2008-01-07T23:36:00.000+08:00

今天韵柔跟我要我的BLOG，
我犹豫了很久，
到底我应该选择告诉她还是不要呢？
最后我都还是选择告诉她了，
既然我选择告诉她，
那我也应该相信她不会爆出去的，
打从考RC的那一天起，
我对她的相信也增加了，
我万万想不到她会送我离别卡，
认识她已有五年了，
我对她的影像渐渐地减少了，
因为至从她跟CK在一起后，
她的性格三百六十度地转变，
像似变了另外一个人，
变得野蛮多了，
可是从那一天起，
我对她的看法已改变，
开始的慢慢相信她了，
想当年我迫命的去追她，
现在对她已经没有感觉了，
她还蛮珍贵的吗。。。
三个人追她，
可是我选择了退出，
一部份的原因是因为他，
现在没有遇到这种感觉了，
感觉轻松多了，
因为现在的是一对一，
并不是二对一。。。

到了最后，
我松了一口气，
她说她不要了。。。

无聊的人最讨厌， 6/1/08的心情日记

2008-01-07T01:13:00.001+08:00

无段段给人骂我神经病！
我看你们是最可恶的吧！
问你们东西吧了，
需要将久吗？
我了解你们很忙，
如果你们忙的话，
就干脆不要应人家，
但如果回复人家，
就不要去做别的东西，
然后又没有应人家，
一时又要让别人等！
这才是最可恶的！！！
最讨厌这样的你们！

眼见新光帮一个渐渐离去，
心中非常的难过，
他们真的是实力派的人，
为什么要残酷地对待他们呢？
不过这毕竟是个比赛，
冠军也只会有一个，
就想在学业方面一样，
不过不用尽，
我永远支持你，李宣榕。。。

今天我也１受到了惊人的MSG，

致大家：
我运嘉今天做了一个重大的决定，
我发现到我喜欢上嘉谊和陈翎，
怎么办？
运嘉启。

很好笑哦？
不知道又是谁散的谣言，
我知道事实并不是这样的，
如果这是事实，
那就是说我不配做他朋友，
不了解他。。。

尽了做哥的责任，5/1/08的心情日记

2008-01-06T02:27:00.001+08:00

你就是那样
有时我很讨厌你的，
可是因为你是我妈妈，
而且又是抚养我长大的人，
所以我必须尊重你，
可是你今天真的很过份，
你整天只会骗我们的，
明明答应了雯，
要带他们去吃好料的，
可是最终你都还是打抱回家，
而且那个食物是菜豆饭，
又说好料，
弄得雯哭了！
害到她不要吃东西，
我回到家后，
得知雯还没吃东西就去责备妈妈，
因为在家里，
妈妈是最怕我的！
跟她理论后，
最终都由我煮给雯吃，
希望她不要在骗人了！！！

今天很闷，
在家里不懂要做什么，
MAPLE已经玩闷了，
看了奸人坚，
觉得好无聊！
真的很闷！
又找不到人陪我出去，
那个死运嘉，
昨天问他的事情，
到现在都没有回复！
看他是无话可说了吧！

宁静的夜晚，等待幸福的欲望， 4/1/08的心情日记

2008-01-05T01:42:00.001+08:00

等待嘉敏的电话好辛苦哦～
心里抱着不耐烦的期待，
让我今天不知所措，
还好今天她终于得到了手机，
所以可以跟我SMS了，
哈哈。。。
期待已久的电话终于到临了，
电话终于响了，
原来她在那边的生活过的很好，
那边的人也对她很好，
不过也不见怪啦，
嘉敏的性格另人欢喜勒，
绝对不会惹出麻烦的，
所以我很放心，
晚上打算跟她褒粥，
哈哈。。。

今天我突然听到祥杰考车失败了，
心情显得很低落，
难道考车真的那么难吗？
我可以不要成为他们的一份子吗，
我很可怜的勒，
不过我已答应嘉敏了，
我一定行的！！！
我一定能过关的，
不过这也增加了我的压力。。。

今天运嘉无段段说叫我不要跟别人太好，
因为他们会妒嫉你跟其他人很好，
这个我也知道啦，
因为我也会妒嫉那些跟他很好的人，
然后跟他发脾气，
不过最终他都会探回我，
这也是以前的事了，
可是我还抓不到运嘉的意识，
不过我可以告诉你们，
我现在的好朋友有三位了，
一有心事时，
我一定告诉他们，
可是为什么你叫我不要跟你将好，
你说因为怕别人妒嫉，
还是这是个借口？？

我打死也不忍输， 3/1/08的心情日记

2008-01-03T23:11:00.000+08:00

今天我哭了，
还以为学业考试过了，
我就不会有压力了，
怎知道我学车更感觉到压力，紧张，
单单在路上，我就死火两次，
差点给别的车撞到，
你们应该知道我是很怕失败的，
所以我每样事情都做得最完美，
在学业上为了不再给人看不起，
所以我比普通的人来得努力，
在温习方面不比别人逊，
现在的我学业已不成问题了，
可是在学车方面却令我非常担心，
老实说我是死背的，
在驾车方面一定逊呆的，
在考UNDANG时，
我前几天真的一直在看，死背，
当时我也听到祥杰和志强考到很好，
再加上那个死运嘉说，
志强才刚考到车牌，
他就驾四号牙了，
所以都害我变得很压力了，
老实说，我只跟男的斗强项，
所以在任何一方面我都会跟他们斗，
我很怕我会输给他们，
所以我在家一直很努力的去死背，
其实在我眼中，思想中，
能和我一交天下的人只有志强吧了，
在学业上我已输了他，
但其它方面我绝对不能输，
因为我有了这种心态，
所以我就学习了坚强。。。

UNDANG终算过了，
可是现在轮到考车，
我真的很怕我会考不到，
再加上这个不能自己在家练习，
所以弄得我现在很害怕。。。

嘉敏两天没打电话给我了，
很担心她会出事，
但我知道她会怕贵，
因为人家在SARAWAK，
打给我是很贵的，
我真的了解的。。。

第二天的半夜， 2/1/08的心情日记

2008-01-03T01:39:00.000+08:00

不知为什么我跟别人可以谈得很开心，
可是对自己的朋友却谈得心机超重的勒？
心想我是否想太多了，
还是我是个废才呢？
我总是喜欢跟外人谈天，
因为他们都不懂我们的事的，
真的羡慕你们可以不用想将多。。。

哈哈，
今天懒散的我，
终于肯拿起扫把，
打扫房间了，
好久没打扫了，
真的很肮脏勒。。。
看了花样少年少GAL，
觉得台湾好开放哦～
希望我是剧中的金秀伊勒，
真的好帅及活泼，
思想简单，不会想太多，多么好啊～
今天我也献给了我第一次，
第一次架车，真的很爽，又刺激。。。

晚上了，
跟死党们去YAMCHA，
平时我都很少去参他们的，
老实说我真的很讨厌聚会，
因为我往往都会被忽略，冷落，
那种心情我真的不想回忆了，
可是今天却很不同哦～
我感觉我很幸福了，
可能是我懂事了，
不再想多余的事了。。。
在谈天时，
他们都谈起了我和嘉敏，
当时我真的很MALU，
可是当时看到运嘉很不爽，
心想不知是否是关系到我和嘉敏的，
因为上次运嘉跟我说他在我和嘉敏开始时，哭了，
心想他是不是喜欢上嘉敏，
我真的不想再碰到我的好朋友同时和我爱上一个人，
ＦＯＲＭ３时就是和他爱上了韵柔的，
现在我不想在碰到同样的事，
因为我都是那个牺牲者，
我都会退出那三角恋的，
过去的就忘了它吧。。。

新的生活，2008年的第一天， 1/1/08的心情日记

2008-01-02T03:25:00.000+08:00

最近，嘉敏天天都有打电话给我，
心里觉得好感动，
再加上她说过会等我，
让我开心不已,
她去NS了，
却天天都得打电话给我，
让我觉得好有幸福感，
让我觉得我不能辜负她，
我一定要好好对待她。。。

新的一天，
我都没跟朋友出去走走，
整个人变得很懒散，
再加上我没得学架车，
整天呆在家里好闷哦～
终觉得我跟电脑的互动比朋友来的多，
今天是新的一天了，
我当然想改变自我，
不要让大家认为我还是个黄毛丫头，
我要成熟点，
因为我长大了。。。

31/12/07的心情日记。。。 2007年的最后一天

2007-12-31T23:52:00.000+08:00

今天我们傻傻的，
我们几个人去KLCC找工，
可是失败了，
我也不打算找份工了，
今天也是迎接新的一年的到来，
我终于结束了中学时光，
也代表我快老了一岁，
啊～

难道我真的没有人缘吗？
为什么我约人家去看戏，
可是人家都以借口来带过，
不愿和我出去，
难道我真的很可怕，恐怖吗？
说到没有钱我可以谅解的，
可是人家却愿意和别人出去，
我真的很失败，
没找份工，呆在家里做大少爷，
郁闷也都算了，
可是别把我当成怪物看待，
我是人类，
我有感情的，可以别在伤害我吗？？？

希望新的一年，
天天行大运，
学业青出于蓝。。。

30/12/07 的心情日记

2007-12-30T22:56:00.000+08:00

一直都是我想太多了，
本来以为他突然不理会我了，
原来是他开始工作了，
ON９的时间也逐渐减少了，
今天他约了我去YAMCHA，
我们谈了很多事情哦～
啊，我不知该不该去找份工，
他们都说先学好驾车，
然后才谈工作，
可是人家没有钱了，
都不好意思跟爸爸拿钱，
不知道该怎么办，
烦恼的我，
谁可以救救我～～～